Black Seconds (29 page)

Emil considered this for a long time. An awfully long time. Sejer waited patiently. This man did not want to rush. This man took everything that had happened very seriously. He wanted to give an accurate reply. However, now he hesitated. All this time his thoughts were scanning his memories. Sejer could tell from the rapid move ment of his eyes that they were roaming an inner landscape.

‘No,’ he said finally. This time, however, the ‘no’

was less forceful.

But she was dead when we found her, Sejer thought. Her abdominal cavity was filled with blood. Her body had been frozen. Why don’t you feel bad? He reclined in his chair for a moment. Glanced at Emil. Allowed his huge shape to fill his entire field of vision; he was genuinely perplexed.

‘You really are a riddle, Emil.’

Emil nodded; he agreed completely.

‘And you like being one!’ Sejer declared. Finally Emil gave him a broad, contented smile. He had few ways to communicate his thoughts. He did not know sign language and he stared nervously at the pen and notepad placed in front of him on the table. Eventually he picked up the pen and started playing with the cap. Then he put it down again. He sat waiting, quietly, but he did not cooperate. He was defensive, but at the same time he did have 303

rights. A solicitor had been appointed, but was unable to assist him much. My client is incapable of expressing himself, he stated, knowing no more than anyone else about who Emil was and what he might or might not have done. Sejer was convinced that Emil was guilty. However, he could not work out what his motive might have been. Was being different reason enough?

Experts declared that Emil clearly belonged to the autistic spec trum to such an extent that it had held back his development. Did Sejer have the right to rush through the interrogation stage of the case purely because Emil was an oddball and might not need a motive at all? Deep down he was scared that he might be missing something. He wondered if there was something he had misunderstood.

‘Your mother bought the nightie, Emil. I’m not wrong, am I?’

Emil looked away and clammed up like an oyster. He’s protecting his mother, Sejer thought. This is impossible: he wants to explain himself, but he’s afraid he’ll cause problems for her. He has too many considerations. And too few words. Sejer rested his head in his hand. This was a unique situation. They sat like this, in silence, during most of the interrogations, Sejer hoping that a miracle would happen if only he sat there long enough. Sooner or later Emil would talk. Though he had no reason for thinking so. Did he not long for freedom? Did he not want to go home to Henry the Eighth? He seemed very determined, just like his mother. Of 304

course, she was the most expedient route to under standing his story. But he was not prepared to let her go on talking day after day without knowing her son’s version. It might differ from hers. The most likely scenario was that Emil had killed Ida and later called his mother so she could help him hide the body. Together they had panicked and put her in the freezer while they worked out their next move. But why hide her so well to begin with, only to place her by the roadside later where she was bound to be discovered quickly? It seemed messy. The bicycle in one place and Ida in another. Where were her clothes and the red helmet?

He reminded himself that human beings did not always act in ways that were easy to understand or even rational. People often acted on impulse and justified their actions retrospectively.

‘Did you drive out to Lysejordet to leave Ida by the roadside?’

No, Emil had not driven out to Lysejordet. Every time he had given an answer, he awaited Sejer’s next question. At times his eyes were relatively sharp. He was observing Sejer secretly; he took in the room; he listened, tilted his head when ever something happened out in the corridor. From time to time he nodded briefly to himself as if he was making a mental note. Sejer believed that Emil wanted to tell his side of the story, but without losing the dignity he had acquired by rejecting speech.

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said. ‘You’re scared she’ll get into trouble because of what’s happened. I can understand that. She has always helped you. At the same time I do believe that you want to tell me what happened.’ He looked into Emil’s grey eyes. ‘Am I wrong?’

‘No,’ Emil said. The corner of his mouth quivered slightly and his fingers wriggled in the air in front of him. He became aware of it and composed himself. Now his hands formed a knot on the table. Sejer had an idea. ‘If your mother told me everything that happened, would I have a true picture of the situation?’

Emil looked up quickly. ‘No, no,’ he said hurriedly.

‘So there’s something she has misunderstood?’

He nodded.

‘That’s very interesting,’ Sejer said. ‘Great that you’re nodding, by the way. You don’t like admitting to anything. Don’t like saying yes. But sometimes it’s really important. I’m scared that I’ll make a mis take, you see. I’m a fairly good police officer,’ he added immodestly, and this made Emil burst into a spontaneous smile. ‘But even though I’m good at my job, there are times when I need help.’

He looked at Emil closely. ‘Like you needed help. When you realised that Ida was dead.’

Later on, the bird crossed his mind once more. Henry the Eighth might be sitting all on its own chatting away to itself in Emil’s living room, hidden 306

away under a towel. Perhaps it had run out of food and water. It was his responsibility to make sure that the bird was cared for. Perhaps they could keep it at the station. Astrid Brenningen, the receptionist, could look after it. It was supposed to be very easy, according to Elsa; after all, even Emil had managed it.

It was just coming up to 11 p.m. when he let himself into his flat. Kollberg raised his head and looked at him. The lamplight reflected in his dark eyes, but he did not get up. Sejer took the leash down from its peg on the wall. Kollberg was torn, keen to go with him and keen to stay in.

‘You’ve got to,’ Sejer muttered. ‘You need to relieve yourself. It’s about the only thing you’re able to do these days.’

They pottered around quietly in front of the apartment block, long enough for Kollberg to flex his stiffening joints and work up a limited amount of body heat. Sejer thought, you can’t speak either. Nevertheless, we’ve understood each other perfectly all these years without any problems. We com municate without words, because I don’t expect you to use any. I understand you through other means. I have to access different parts of myself to read your signals. I sit directly opposite Emil and try to work out what he is saying. His body is huge and mighty, it sits so still, but it speaks volumes all the same. I can tell from the healthy colour of his skin that he spends much time outside; his face is weatherworn, his eyes are grey, like mine, a little paler perhaps. 307

He’s quite well groomed; he washes and combs his hair. His clothes are clean because his mother washes them. He’s proud, he has self-esteem. He’s healthy and his body is strong, presumably. He’s in a difficult situation, but he’s not making a fuss. He doesn’t complain. He sits still and waits. Waits for me to guide him through the story. I can see in his eyes that there are times when he’s scared, excited or on his guard. He doesn’t look par ticularly guilty. Doesn’t look like a man who would assault anyone. I can’t ignore the fact that Ida was an attractive child. Can’t ignore that Emil is strong. There’s rage inside all of us, and there’s desire too. Had Emil assaulted Ida? Had she started to scream and he had panicked? What had he done to her fragile body that caused her such severe internal injuries that she died? Sejer stopped because Kollberg had stopped. He was sniffing something on the hillside. It looked like a sparrow and it appeared to have been dead for some time. On the surface it looked undamaged; however, when Kollberg flipped it over with his nose, Sejer saw that it was badly decomposed. Instinctively he flicked the bird into the ditch with the tip of his shoe. He yanked the leash, wanting to move on. It was close to midnight. He thought of the quiet time ahead of him by the window in his flat, in his favourite chair, with the dog at his feet. And a generous measure of whisky. A moment he always made time for. A ritual estab lished years back. A single cigarette, which he rolled himself. A carefully selected CD from the shelf. 308

Sipping his whisky quietly while he day dreamed. Let his eyes wander over to the photo of Elise. Think about her, think good thoughts about her. What am I going to do, it suddenly dawned on him, when the dog’s gone and I’m sitting in the empty living room on my own? I’m too old to get a puppy. Sara, he remembered. Please come home soon. It’s so quiet here. He looked at Kollberg and felt ashamed. Here I am imagining that you’re dead already. The dog had acquired that gauntness often associated with old age; his coat was too big for him.

Quietly Sejer walked back. Stood immobile on the living room floor watching the dog try to settle in his usual spot by his chair. It was a wretched sight. A sinking feeling of despair started in the pit of Sejer’s stomach. The dog moved in slow, rigid circles around his own body. Then he started to lower himself to the floor, shaking a little, somewhat unsteady. His hind legs first, then his front paws. It was clearly painful for him to move from standing to lying down. After a protracted and clumsy manoeuvre he was finally lying down. His large head was the last part to be lowered. An infinitely deep sigh then followed; as though he was taking his final breath.

I can’t allow this to go on, Sejer thought. He instantly looked the other way. He could not bear to look his dog in the eye.

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Elsa Mork used her strength to maintain a feeling of control. She had slept, eaten and given herself a good talking to. She held her head high and for her age she was a fit woman, but she was reaching the end of her life nonetheless. She knew this. Besides, she possessed a strong inner sense of decency. Yet still she fought against the inevitable. Losing her reputation would cause her great pain. She stared closely at Sejer in order to convince herself that he really would believe her if she told him the truth. Or be able to understand it. And the extent to which he would judge her. He was a kind man. This baffled her. When he had arrived on her doorstep with the nightie in the carrier bag, she had felt such fear. In here it was different. She had not felt threatened by him, not for one second.

‘Are you just as kind to Emil as you are to me?’

she asked on impulse. The next moment she blushed.

‘It’s easy to be kind to Emil,’ Sejer said. ‘He’s a very charming man.’

He was being completely sincere as he said this. 310

Elsa felt that she believed him. She suppressed a sob. Gulped as if she was swallowing something too big too quickly. She could cry later when no one was looking. She controlled herself.

‘Tell me about Emil,’ Sejer said. ‘What makes him angry?’

She watched him for a long time.

‘Well,’ she said bitterly, ‘I do when I turn up with my mop. Though he doesn’t really get angry. He sulks. Thinks there is no need for cleaning.’ She thought about her son and felt powerless. Because he was out of her reach in a way he never had been before. She was used to entering his house whenever she pleased. Now she could neither take care of him nor control him.

‘No,’ she said, ‘I don’t think he ever gets angry, to be honest, but then he never sees anyone. If his three-wheeler refuses to start, he just gives it a puzzled look. Then he starts to fix it with great patience. Everything practical such as nuts and bolts he handles really well.’

‘But if you think back. His whole life. Since he was a child. Do you recall anything that made him angry?’

She bit her lip. Thought of the nightmare that haunted her. Imagined the condemnation that would follow; she was convinced that telling Sejer about the incident was handing him on a plate precisely what he was looking for. Evidence of frenzied, destructive rage. Nevertheless she started talking to him. In the midst of everything, Elsa had to acknowledge that 311

she was receiving a level of attention she had not experienced for years. And she was getting it from a man. It was the first time she had tried to put the incident into words, and she stuttered slightly.

‘He was eight years old,’ she recalled, ‘and he was playing outside in the yard. We lived in a small house out at Gullhaug. Emil was quite stubborn even when he was little. Getting him to do as he was told wasn’t easy. But he was also very fearful. He was scared of the chickens, can you believe it?’ She smiled as she said this, and Sejer smiled back at her.

‘Our neighbour had a puppy,’ she said, ‘a beagle I think it was. It had escaped from their house and strayed into our yard. I saw it from the window. Emil just froze when the puppy suddenly came running up to him. It jumped straight up at him, wanting to play. He tried to shake it off, but it was no use. He twisted and turned, but not a sound came out of his mouth. I was standing by the window ironing shirts and soon realised that I would have to go outside and rescue him, but I was feeling annoyed too, I admit it. Most kids would welcome a puppy with open arms. But not Emil. He started kicking it.’ She groaned. ‘He was wearing heavy boots, that was all he ever wanted to wear, you’d think he was worried something would happen to his toes . . . well, anyway, he started kicking it. He kicked it quite hard.’

She slumped as she recalled the scene. The images made her feel nauseous. ‘The puppy ran off and lay trembling on the ground,’ she said. ‘Suddenly I 312

couldn’t move and I began to feel terribly scared. But he didn’t stop kicking it. It was like he was having a fit of madness and I was trying to snap myself out of my trance, but I kept holding on to the iron and could hardly believe my own eyes. The puppy flew off all over the place and Emil ran after it, kicking it and jumping on it with all his might. I felt so cold,’ she said, her voice quivering. ‘Never in all my life have I seen anything like it. When I finally went outside, there was practically nothing left of it. I got a plastic bag from the kitchen and shovelled the puppy into it. Then I buried it in the garden. I said nothing to Emil, I didn’t know what to say, I couldn’t even look at him.’