Betrayals (22 page)

He looked into taking Tai’s ten-year-old daughter Tam back to Boston with him, but friends had taken her in and assured him she would be well cared for. Thomas wept for her and wondered if she still dreamed of the stone
mas
on
the Riviera, the beautiful roses her father had cultivated, the smell of lemons and flowers and the Mediterranean Sea.

Should he have left Tai to return to his life in southern France?

“I would have come back,” Tai had told him. “Remember that, my friend. You’re a hard man, Thomas, but harder on yourself than on anyone else. No matter what happens to me or to my country, I don’t want you to blame yourself.”

Dear God, how could he not?

A month after her husband’s death, Annette became chairman and president of Winston & Reed.

With the ambush, Thomas Blackburn lost all credibility. His company went bankrupt, and his chance at the ambassadorship to Saigon evaporated. If nothing else, he had put Vietnam on the front pages, and few in the American government wanted that. There were still those who preferred to do their work there quietly, effectively and fast.

Thomas returned to West Cedar Street, to his house not a half mile from Annette Reed’s, and he prayed to God that with himself and Jean-Paul Gerard out of the way, she was finished.

A
nnette poured herself a glass of brandy and wandered from room to room in her big, empty house, skipping only Kim’s quarters in the apartment she’d made for him in the basement. She moved briskly, angrily, through the house, talking to herself, wondering if this was the sort of thing crazy old women did. But she’d been doing it for years, ever since Jean-Paul Gerard had come back to haunt her first in 1963, then again in 1974, and again in 1975, and again now.

She didn’t have his Jupiter Stones.

But she wasn’t going to let him ruin her life over them or anything she’d done out of self-defense.

The past was past.

She was a different person than what she’d been thirty years ago. Couldn’t he see that? Couldn’t
Thomas?
People grow up, she thought. They go on with their lives. They forget the mistakes they’ve made and the wrongs that have been committed against them. They don’t hold grudges
forever.

She had lived an exemplary life. She didn’t deserve to keep suffering like this.

And damn you, Thomas, I have suffered.

Whenever she thought about sweet, gentle, boring Benjamin…well, she simply couldn’t. She hadn’t taken a lover since his death. Twenty-six years of celibacy: her way of honoring her husband’s memory, of punishing herself for the miscalculation that had led to his death…but that really was Thomas’s fault. He had known Benjamin hadn’t belonged on that excursion into the Mekong Delta. He should have stopped him from going.

Thomas’s fault. Not hers.

Benjamin’s last words to her were etched forever in her mind. “You’re a tough-minded woman, Annette. We’ll be a good balance for each other.”

And they would have been, too. She saw that now.

Would she have continued to have affairs? She felt no guilt about her brief liaisons with Jean-Paul and Thomas. If they’d been moral mistakes, they weren’t in the sexual sense. Both men had been incredible lovers. Benjamin hadn’t been hurt by her actions, as he’d had no idea she’d ever been “unfaithful” to him.

Night after night for the past twenty-six years, she’d awakened aroused and sobbing, dreaming not of Benjamin and their nights together, but of Jean-Paul and Thomas.

She refilled her brandy glass and kicked off her shoes, feeling freer and more relaxed in her bare feet.

After her disastrous affair with Thomas and the death of her husband, she—the proud, sad widow—had plunged herself into her work at Winston & Reed. Her parents and friends had excused her unseemly ambition when she’d explained to them, tearfully, that she was working hard and determined to make one business triumph after another in order to honor her husband’s memory.

As American military involvement in Indochina escalated, Winston & Reed made enormous profits, and
Annette diversified and expanded its investments in the U. S. She never went back to Saigon on business after 1963. She had a trusted, astute American staff there and her own quiet network of Vietnamese contacts.

With the Paris Peace Accords, she engineered the downscaling of Winston & Reed’s commitment to what she believed was a doomed South Vietnam. It just wasn’t good business to continue to invest in a country she knew wasn’t going to last. She had no desire to lose assets to the communists.

She fought Quentin’s decision to leave for Saigon in October 1973. She could have forbidden him to go, but with the American military withdrawal and no word from Jean-Paul Gerard in ten years, she decided—moronically—she had nothing to fear. She assumed Jean-Paul must have died as a prisoner of war.

She hadn’t even guessed Quang Tai’s lovely daughter, Tam, would become a problem.

By the spring of 1974, Quentin had taken up with her, and Annette began to worry. When he came home for the groundbreaking ceremonies for the new Winston & Reed building, she warned her son about committing himself to a long-term relationship with a Vietnamese woman.

“But this is Tam,” he told her.

Yes, indeed: Tam. His childhood playmate on the Riviera whose father had died on the same day, in the same ambush as Benjamin Reed. Bad enough Annette had to tolerate Rebecca Blackburn’s return to Boston as a student and her nephew Jared’s obvious interest in her. She couldn’t control them. But Quentin was her son, and she
wouldn’t
tolerate his continuing a relationship with Tai’s daughter.

By early summer, Tam and Quentin were still going
strong, and Annette was running down the list of possible ultimatums she could give him to drop her.

Enter Jean-Paul Gerard.

He’d discovered Quentin’s idiotic involvement with a ring of drug smugglers, and finally had sent him to his mother for a way of getting the Frenchman to keep his mouth shut.

Licking his lips, nervous and abject, Quentin explained the situation. “He asked me to tell you that you should know what he wants.”

She did: the Jupiter Stones.

Her only satisfaction throughout the ordeal was listening to Quentin’s description of Jean-Paul’s haggard, malnourished, parasite-ridden body. His hair had gone completely white, and he was no longer the dashing young Frenchman who’d swept her off her feet on the Riviera fifteen years earlier. He had escaped, she learned, from his jungle POW camp in 1968 after five years of imprisonment. Obviously he’d stayed in Vietnam and was unable or uninterested in getting proper medical attention for the captivity-related conditions he suffered.

Maybe he’ll just wither away and die, Annette had thought.

She’d never, however, been one to wait for providence to act. Indirectly and quietly, she let her more unsavory contacts know a confirmed report of Jean-Paul Gerard’s death would please her mightily. Kim himself had twice tried to kill him and failed.

Meanwhile, Annette found her way to get her son out of Saigon and away from Tam and Gerard.

“I’ll help you,” she told him, “under one condition.”

He didn’t ask her what condition that was; he already knew.

But she told him, anyway, just to be sure. “You’re not to go back to Saigon.”

As Annette walked out into her damp, cool garden, she drank her expensive brandy, still able to see the stricken look on Quentin’s handsome face during that dreadful luncheon in which she’d destroyed his boyish fantasies about coming home to live with Tam.

“But what about Tam?” he’d asked.

“She’s survived the past eleven years as an orphan in a war-torn country. She’ll be all right. Trust me, Quentin. You’ll still be thinking about her long, long after she’s forgotten you and moved on to another good-looking, rich, vulnerable man.”

With Quentin out of the country, Jean-Paul lost his leverage. Annette half expected him to send her pictures or some other incontrovertible proof of her son’s culpability in the drug-smuggling operation, but she didn’t hear another word from him.

Quentin moped for weeks, until she was able to call him into her office at Winston & Reed and announce not only was she promoting him to a management position, she was also going to allay his doubts about what he’d done to Tam.

“I’ve never told you this,” she said, “but I’ve had people in Saigon looking out for Tam, because I considered her father my friend and care very deeply about her, even if I strongly object to her using my son to further her own ends. My people tell me she’s taken up with another man.”

Her son’s shock was palpable. “Are you sure?”

“Quite. What’s more, she’s pregnant.”

“Mother—”

“And I believe you know the father. They’re even living together.”

Quentin didn’t say a word.

Annette looked properly sympathetic. “It just goes to
show you, Quentin, that you have to be very, very careful about whom you trust.”

“Tam…”

“Oh, not just Tam. The man she’s taken up with is your own cousin Jared.”

Annette had no idea if all she’d told him was true or not. She did know Tam was pregnant, and she did know the young woman had gone to live with Jared after losing her penthouse apartment. The rest—well, for all Annette knew, the baby could have been Quentin’s or anyone else’s in Saigon.

“Remember,” she had told Quentin over and over during those touchy weeks, “the one person you can trust is your mother. I always have your best interests at heart.”

Annette felt hot tears streaming down her wind-cooled cheeks.
Yes, Quentin, you can trust me…. I’m your mother…I love you.

And Thomas’s voice came to her.
You love only yourself, Annette
.

She threw her glass onto the stone terrace. It wasn’t true!

“Bravo, my dear.”

This time Thomas’s voice wasn’t in her imagination. Whipping around, she saw him coming out of the shadows onto the terrace. He looked like a ghost—old, pale, thin. Her heart throbbed painfully, and she debated fleeing into the house and pulling all the drapes, turning out the lights, just sitting there alone, as if trapped in a huge, cavernous coffin, all alone against the big, bad, ugly world.

He went on smugly. “It’s best not to repress your emotions, but I’m too tired for arguing and swearing at each other. Annette, I have a proposition to make to you.”

She eyed him suspiciously, but said nothing.

Thomas took that as a cue to go on. “I want you to tell Jean-Paul I have the Jupiter Stones.”

“Do you?”

“Tell him Tam took them from you before she left France for Saigon. She didn’t know what they were—she only wanted them as a memento.” Thomas came into the shaft of light from the house, but it only made him look older, paler, thinner. “Tell Jean-Paul Tam sent them to me for safekeeping before her death.”

Annette couldn’t move. Her heart was racing, her eyes wouldn’t focus, and she had to will herself not to give Thomas the satisfaction of collapsing at his feet. She said, “I don’t understand….”

“I don’t want you to have control over this situation, Annette. If you’ll send Jean-Paul to me, I promise I’ll do everything I can to get him to forget about vengeance or justice and leave you alone.”

“Why should I trust you?”

He looked at her a moment. “Have I ever gone back on my word to you?”

She didn’t answer, refusing to acknowledge his honesty, but knowing he was faultlessly devoted to “his word.”

“Annette…”

Was he going to plead with her? She smiled at the prospect. But he trailed off and started back into the shadows toward the carriageway. “All right,” she said. “I’ll at least think about your idea. I’ll let you know.”

“As you wish,” he said.

“Don’t pull that sanctimonious tone on me. I never wanted any of this to happen—”

“Why not, Annette?” Thomas asked sarcastically, glancing back at her. “It’s such an adventure.”

“Goddamn you to hell, you arrogant bastard!”

He gave her a small, secret smile, satisfied, at least, that he’d gotten to her. Back out on the street, the night air was brisk and windy, the big houses aglow, and Thomas fancied them filled with laughter and people who cared about each other. It was a nice fancy. He had decided against polishing off his bottle of blueberry wine and instead had found himself on Mt. Vernon Street for the second time in twenty-six years—and in twelve hours. It hadn’t changed since morning, or, really, all that much since 1963.

Mindful of heart attacks and headlines, he nonetheless got back to West Cedar as quickly as he dared.

B
y three o’clock in the morning Jared was ready to decapitate the cuckoo in Thomas Blackburn’s parlor clock and maybe strangle R.J.’s cat, Sweatshirt, who insisted on pawing his afghan and climbing over his face. Jared had counted off midnight, one o’clock, two o’clock, and every half hour in between, and now, pushing the cat off him one more time, he waited for three to sound.

There it was: “Cuckoo…cuckoo…cuckoo.”

He threw off his afghan and sat up on the couch. His mind was spinning with images and questions, with R.J.’s still-beautiful smile. They had walked past sundown, trying to sort things out, but often talking about nothing—the little old lady who used to run the chocolate shop on Charles Street, whether that was really Mrs. Caldwell’s silver in the antique shop window and had she gone broke, this year’s citrus crop in Florida, the backless dress in the Newbury Street boutique window. Rebecca had shoved the Jupiter Stones into her handbag, which she slung cavalierly over her shoulder.

“Aren’t you worried about getting mugged?” he’d asked.

“That’d solve all our problems, wouldn’t it? We could send Gerard after some poor mugger.”

Thomas was still in the garden when they’d gotten back, and Jared hadn’t liked how he’d looked: ashen-faced and a million years old, knowing things he wouldn’t tell.

Knowing things both he and Jared knew and hadn’t told anyone, including Rebecca.

Seeing her again hadn’t made the lie he’d let her believe any easier to bear. But he had felt he had no choice.

In 1975, still weakened from his weeks in the hospital in Manila and then Hawaii, Jared had come to Thomas for advice. He hadn’t known who else to go to, who else would understand Quentin and Rebecca and Tam and a man’s responsibility to an innocent child in the way Thomas would.

“Do what you feel you must,” Thomas had counseled him. “It’s all anyone can ask of you.”

So he had. And in so doing, he’d lost R.J. Already burned by two men in her life—a father who’d promised to come home and hadn’t and a grandfather who’d ruined her family’s good name—she hadn’t been easy on a lover who’d admitted he’d fathered a child by another woman.

He raked his hands through his hair. The hell with this. He pulled on his jeans and tiptoed upstairs to Rebecca’s room on the third floor, half expecting Athena to streak out of her room with a carving knife.

Light angled through her cracked door. Jared knocked, softly.

“It’s open,” she said.

Rebecca stood in her window, looking down at the street, and Jared’s stomach clenched at the sight of her, draped in a silk satin nightgown that probably had set her back as much as she’d used to make summers working in the O’Keefe citrus groves. It was cream-colored with tiny
yellow flowers embroidered along the neckline, softening the stark expression on her angular face. She was tough, this woman he’d once loved. Tough on others, tougher on herself. “Cut yourself some slack,” he used to tell her during their too-short time together. “It’s okay to be human.”
And let me be human, too,
he’d wanted to say.
Let me make mistakes.

In her book, he had.

Seeing her in the expensive, feminine nightgown highlighted how she’d changed. Fourteen years ago, every time she’d spent a nickel on herself she’d thought about her college expenses, her five younger brothers, the starving, the homeless, the poor. Jared wondered if she’d agonized over buying the nightgown or had accepted it was okay to spend a few bucks on herself.

“I thought you might be Grandfather,” she said.

“Not old enough. Mind if I come in?”

“Of course not—have a seat.” As she moved away from the window and climbed onto her childhood bed, she caught his look and laughed. “I know it’s ridiculous, my living her like an eight-year-old, but it’s been good.”

Jared pulled up a chair and sat down. He noticed the light scent of the powder she’d used after her shower and could see a dusty streak on her throat. With her hair hanging down and her cheeks flushed and that damned nightgown, she looked like a beautiful virgin princess, but he thought better of telling her so.

“Your bruise doesn’t look so bad now,” he said.

“It’s fine. You couldn’t sleep?”

“No.”

She leaned back against the headboard. “I’ve been up here pacing and thinking and—I don’t know. Sometimes I think I was too hard on you, Jared. It was easy just to blame
you for what happened between us instead of looking at myself, as well. It was so long ago. We were in such different places in our lives.” She caught herself and smiled suddenly. “Never mind. You don’t want to hear this.”

“No, go on. Please.”

She talked for a long time, exposing herself to him in a way she never had before. Coming to Saigon and witnessing the collapse of South Vietnam had had an impact on her that he’d been too blind or stupid or just too convinced of her indomitability to have noticed at the time.

“I looked around that devastated country and realized my father had died there trying to do some good and it all amounted to nothing. Zero, Jared. People were still fighting and suffering and what could I do about it? I was overwhelmed. I’d set some fairly tough goals for myself. I had years of school ahead of me. I was going to set the world on fire and clear the Blackburn name—and when I was in Saigon, all that seemed so selfish and useless. There were people running scared for their lives, people without homes or food—little kids with no one to take care of them. I looked around and realized that I could work the rest of my life and maybe—
maybe—
make a small difference. So why bother at all?”

Her eyes were huge and glistening in the soft light, and she explained that even without Tam and Mai, she didn’t know what she’d have done when she finally came home from Saigon. Finally, she quit school, got a flunky job as a designer while taking art classes, and worked on Junk Mind.

“It took me a while,” she said, “but now I’m really glad I made my fortune coming up with a game that brings people together for a few laughs the way Junk Mind does. I’ve shot a man, Jared, and I’ve seen people suffer and die violent deaths. It doesn’t bother me a bit to know some
thing I created entertains millions of people. And the design work I do doesn’t make any great artistic statements, but that’s okay.” She grinned at him. “Me, I appreciate a nicely designed restaurant menu.”

“Are you sorry you didn’t finish your degree?” he asked.

“I don’t know. Sometimes I think when I settle down I’ll get back to it. In case you haven’t realized, I’ve moved around a lot. And here I always thought you’d be the wanderer. That was another thing that worried me, you know. Not only are you half Winston and the Winstons and Blackburns haven’t exactly gotten along the past quarter-century, but you’re half-Sloan—and an architect on top of it. You father hasn’t set any records for lasting relationships, and you know what they say about architects—don’t get attached too soon. You were just twenty-five, Jared. Never mind the rest of it. We just weren’t ready for each other.”

She winced at her choice of words, as if after fourteen years things might have changed. But that was the hard part of the past few days, of seeing his picture and having him turn up in Boston. She was discovering how much she still cared about Jared Sloan.

“You’ve settled down though, I see,” she said lamely.

Jared smiled. “It’s not easy to pick up and go with a kid.”

“I suppose not. Do you like San Francisco?”

“Sure.”

“Ever miss Boston?”

“Occasionally. It’s where I grew up—I have memories here.” His gaze rested on her. “Some are tougher to forget than others.”

Rebecca shifted, suddenly feeling awkward and exposed, and she asked quickly, “Do you think you’ll ever bring Mai here?”

“She’d give her eyeteeth to come, but it’s not going to happen.”

He got up and went to Rebecca, sitting on the bed next to her, knowing he had to tell her. Maybe that was why he’d come up to her room. Not because he couldn’t sleep or because he wanted her to explain why she hadn’t given him a chance after Saigon, but simply, because he needed to talk.

At last.

He brushed her hair behind her ear and grazed her bruised cheek with one finger. “Rebecca,” he said, passing over her nickname, “I want you to promise you’ll hear me out.”

Her brows furrowed, and the Blackburn incisiveness was there in her gorgeous eyes. But she said, “All right.”

“I never slept with Tam.”

“So Quentin Reed is Mai’s—what? Her biological father?”

The shutters banged in a gust of wind. On the end of Rebecca’s bed, Jared shut his eyes and nodded. It was the first time he had ever heard those words spoken aloud:
Quentin is Mai’s father.

“And Mai doesn’t know?”

He listened for it, but there was no hint of accusation in her voice. Did Rebecca sympathize with the hard choice he’d made? He had told her everything: Quentin’s secret affair with Tam, his stupid involvement with the drug-smuggling scheme, his return home. Jared could still remember the disgust he’d felt toward his cousin, who’d suddenly treated Tam as if she had never existed. Jared couldn’t understand why she continued to believe in him, but she did. And he’d kept his promise to her not to tell anyone—not even Rebecca—about the affair she’d had
with his cousin. Hothead that Rebecca was, she never would have kept her mouth shut, killing Jared’s hope for Tam to begin a new life after her baby was born.

“No, Mai doesn’t know,” he said, and he looked at Rebecca. “Do you think I want her knocking on Quentin’s door so she can see what her real dad looks like? At the very least he abandoned Tam and made it clear he didn’t want to have anything to do with their baby. At worst, he had Tam killed and tried to have Mai killed.”

As she listened in rigid silence, Jared explained how, the night Tam had died, he’d come to realize she’d contacted Quentin and had cajoled, begged, bribed or threatened him to get her out of Saigon and back into his life. Maybe she’d presented him with an untenable ultimatum, or maybe he was just a coward who couldn’t face up to what he’d done. Either way, two assassins had shown up at Jared’s Tu Do Street apartment to murder Tam and try to murder Mai…and had almost killed Jared and Rebecca, just because they were there and in the way.

“Now I don’t know,” he went on heavily. “I don’t know if Tam’s translation of what the Vietnamese told her through the door was accurate—or if she was hearing what she wanted to hear. She was exhausted and scared. She just couldn’t believe Quentin would abandon her and their baby. But that doesn’t explain the gems in Mai’s diaper, Jean-Paul Gerard,
Le Chat,
Baroness Majlath—” He broke off with a tired huff. “I don’t know anymore. There must be a link here we’re missing.”

Rebecca hugged her knees against her chest and nodded at him, white-faced. But she didn’t speak. She was thinking about Quentin leaving a young woman pregnant and alone, and only because she knew Annette Reed could she understand, if never condone, what he’d done.

Mostly she was thinking about the colored “marbles” she had found in Annette’s bedroom thirty years ago, and how much they’d cheered up Tam.

Was that their link?

She shook off the thought. It was something to save for later, when she didn’t have Jared’s warm blue-green eyes searching her face for secrets and answers and maybe a little understanding.

“You told my grandfather everything about Quentin?”

Jared nodded. “R.J., I was scared to death. I didn’t know if Quentin had gone completely off the deep end and would try again to kill Mai—or even me. He knew I’d found out about the smuggling. He knew I knew about him and Tam. Maybe he’d decide he couldn’t live with the prospect of me blabbing and would have me killed. The point is, I didn’t know what he’d do.”

“And Grandfather advised you to take Mai and go?”

“No. That was my decision. He supported it. I’d just signed my name as Mai’s father so it’d be easier to get her and Tam out of Saigon. That kind of stuff went on all the time those last few weeks. But I had the papers—they were legal.” He couldn’t go on; his throat was tight, his stomach aching with tension, and he could see Mai at two years old climbing into his lap, saying
Daddy.
“She’s my daughter in every way.”

Rebecca stretched out her legs, her toes grazing his thigh, and he sensed her confused, raw emotions. “You did what you had to do under the circumstances.”

“I ran,” he said.

“You saved a child from a father who didn’t want her and may have tried to have her killed. I don’t think that’s running.”

“That’s what I’ve been telling myself for years. For
months after we got to San Francisco, I’d hear a noise and wonder if it was another of Quentin’s assassination teams come to claim us.” He sighed, trying to release some of the pent-up tension. “But what if I was wrong? R.J., what if Gerard and that Vietnamese were after a fortune in gems that had nothing to do with Quentin? When I saw him this morning, he acted as if I’d stolen Tam from him and he believed I did father Mai.”

“A rationalization?” Rebecca suggested.

“Maybe. He’s always been good at believing what he wants to believe.” Jared laughed suddenly, sadly, at the complexity and sheer incredibleness of it all. “Murderers, orphans, thieves, secrets, a fortune in gems—all we need now is a monkey to collect nickels to see the show. But we’ll sort this mess out, R.J.”

“Together,” she said. It wasn’t a question; it was a demand.

Jared gave her a long look, and he wasn’t surprised to discover that despite fourteen years apart, he still knew R. J. Blackburn. “Okay. What’s eating you?”

She pulled her knees back up under her chin. “Nothing.”

“Like hell. You’ve been trying to be nice and understanding, but that’s not your way, R.J. Tell me the truth. You think I should have come to you after I got out of the hospital instead of to your grandfather.”

“Not necessarily,” she said.

“You’d already left Boston,” he pointed out.

She flashed him a look that told him his guess was right on. “So? I was in Florida. You could have flown there from Hawaii just as easily as to Boston. You didn’t trust me to have enough sense to
help
you work things out.”