Avoiding Responsibility (51 page)

And if she hadn't lied to Ramsey about John, she certainly wasn't going to lie about what they had done. Even if Ramsey didn't know the truth about what had happened, Chyna certainly did. Lexi couldn't keep hiding.

"I'm not denying it," she finally answered crossing her arms over her chest. Jack threw up his arms and began pacing the length of the hotel room.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Bekah demanded of her brother after Lexi's declaration. Lexi shouldn't have even been surprised that the question wasn't directed at Jack. She hadn't blamed him for anything else that he had done.

"How exactly would I broach the subject?" he asked pointedly. "Hey Bek, did you know that my girlfriend slept with your fiancé? Oh you did? Nice. Well, glad that's out of the way. I wasn't going to ruin your life."

"That's not how it would go and you know it. As my brother you had a right to tell me!"

"Just like you had a right to tell me that you were
lie
to Lexi about me playing her when we first started dating? Just like you had a right to tell me that you were going to
lie
to Lexi about my feelings for her? Just like you were going to leave her alone and not try to ruin our relationship?" he asked crossing his arms over his chest. "Tell me Bekah…why exactly do I owe you anything as my sister?"

"How dare you!" Bekah piped up. "I only did what was in your best interest. You clearly care none for mine."

Ramsey chuckled and shook his head. "Whatever Bek. But just to clarify, in case you weren't following along. Lexi slept with Jack before we were together, and she slept with someone else after we broke up. While I hate the thought of anyone else ever touching her again," he said openly glaring at Jack, "the woman has a point. She never cheated on me, and I don't think she ever intended on it. Stop trying to ruin her. Stop trying to ruin our relationship."

Just then the door to the door to the groomsmen suite burst open, and in sauntered Amber, Maddie, and Kersey. Parker stood awkwardly in the door way uncertain whether to take part in what was going on or to make a quick exit. Kersey glanced back when she noticed, and grabbed her rather forcefully for a girl who didn't even reach five feet tall. "Bekah, what are you doing in here?" Amber demanded her eyes wide in surprise that so many people were in the room. "We have been looking for you everywhere. Don't you know it's bad luck to see the groom before the wedding." Her thick Southern accent drawled out the last word an unnecessarily long time.

"Yeah honey, let's get out of here," Kersey said openly eyeing Adam up and down like he was something she was going to eat for lunch. Chyna possessively stepped in front of him, and Kersey just shrugged as if that didn't matter.

"Actually we're having a serious problem," Maddie interjected. "We couldn't find you or the wedding planner and the band cancelled."

"What?" Bekah yelled shocked out of her silence for the first time. "I thought you were on this Maddie! Don't you know the lead singer?"

"Well…yeah," she said her cheeks flaming slightly at the mention of the lead singer, "but uh…they're getting really famous, and when I tried to call him about showing up, he said that something came up. He was really vague."

"You promised me that they were going to be here tonight at my reception. Have you had my daddy call their manager or anything?" she demanded instantly turning into Business Bekah.

Maddie shook her head. "No I just tried calling him. He said that he had to go home to Seattle for an emergency, and he was really sorry he couldn't make it. You should have heard his voice…it was practically delectable. God, I can just imagine him with his shirt off all over again with that gorgeous body…"

Bekah waved her off. "Don't even right now Mads. This is serious. I was promised a band, and I don't have a band."

"You still have a DJ," Kersey piped up. "We double booked, remember?"

Bekah shot her a look that would kill. "I don't care if I have a DJ. I want that band here. Find the wedding planner, find my daddy, and make it happen."

"Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait…you can't be serious. You're still going to
marry
him after what you just found out?" Chyna gasped out.

She wasn't the only one who looked shocked either. Lexi, Ramsey, and Adam all held the same blank expressions. Lexi never wanted Bekah to know about what had happened between her and Jack that night. Bekah had won. The sex didn't matter to Jack. She was just another one night stand to him. She had realized that. She had always thought Bekah would leave him if she had found out about what had transpired, and Lexi hadn't done it for that purpose. She had done it thinking Jack would choose her, and he hadn't. But the fact that she wasn't even going to leave him after that just amazed her.

Was this woman who had
everything
in the world that desperate for someone to care about her that she wouldn't even accept reality? Was she that desperate to get married?

"Of course I'm marrying him," she said through gritted teeth as if it were the most obvious course of action. "The wedding is happening within the hour. Everything is prepared. All the guests are arriving. It's all paid for…"

"Bekah you know the money doesn't matter!" Ramsey said speaking out against this insane wedding.

Bekah sent him a mutinous look. "I love Jack," she said stepping towards him as he drew closer towards her.

Lexi couldn't even believe what was happening in front of her. Bekah and Jack were still going to go through with his? It had to be the worst decision on the face of the planet. Not only had Jack cheated on Bekah, but it had happened the day before he proposed. And he had tried to do the same thing on their
wedding day
! She couldn't fathom it. Jack had been having second thoughts all week. There was no way that could have changed in the span of this conversation.

"What are they talking about Bekah?" Maddie asked realizing for the first time that they had just interrupted something.

"Nothing ya'll, let's just go," Bekah said turning her back on the group.

"What you want to hide the truth from them too?" Chyna demanded not willing to let the absurdity of the situation go.

"Chyna," Adam whispered warningly.

"No, Adam this is outrageous. She just found out that her boyfriend cheated on her prior to their engagement, and she's just cool with that? Doesn't that seem fucked up to everyone else in the room?"

"What?" Parker asked. A chorus of gasped followed with Amber asking, "Are you serious?"

"Yeah. I'm sorry, but if I had just found out that my fiancé was a total douchebag, I wouldn't just be like, 'yay, that's fine!' I would be freaking out. So, I just can't fathom how Bekah could be so stupid to just let this go. How she could be more concerned that the
band
cancelled for her reception than her future husband is a cheating sleaze ball."

Bekah glared daggers at Chyna. "Look we weren't even engaged at the time, and he's over this stupid girl," she said jabbing her finger in Lexi's direction, "which is the whole goddamn point. So mind your own fucking business, you little bitch."

Lexi started giggling. She actually started giggling. The girl was manic. She had completely gone off the deep end. She had been told she was a princess one too many times, Lexi was sure of it. She had no idea why Bekah would continue in this delusional state of existence, but she was stuck to it apparently. To think that Jack would ever be completely over Lexi after he continually tried to get together with her over the course of seven years was ridiculous. He was terrified of commitment. He was terrified of really letting anyone see who he really was, but Lexi knew. She knew who he was and what he was capable of….the life he was capable of destroying. He cared for himself and that was it. If he really loved Bekah like he was claiming, he would have never wanted to look at another woman let alone sleep with Lexi before their engagement.

"Why are you laughing?" Bekah asked giving Lexi the opportunity to speak.

"Nothing. Nothing," she said unable to hold back her laughter even as she covered her mouth. Tears were coming to her eyes the more she thought about the ridiculous aspect of the entire affair. "Proceed with the adulterous wedding."

"Adulterous?" Bekah asked angrily. She was itching to get out of that room, but she had to stand her ground. She obviously wasn't used to being on the other side of the table in this scenario. She looked more uncomfortable in that moment than Lexi had ever seen her, and it was a beautiful thing to witness.

"Of course it's adulterous," Chyna interjected.

"Ya'll maybe we should just calm down," Maddie said uncertain where her place was. Amber had a devious smile on her face as she watched the proceedings go on, and Kersey was teetering on her high heels as if she was ready to pounce at any moment. Parker still seemed unclear as to how to handle the situation. After all, her appearance had only caused trouble since she had graduated from medical school.

Chyna ignored her. "Yeah there's no way Jack hasn't been with someone else," she spat out.

Bekah shook her head in disbelief. "Ya'll are delusional."

Lexi arched an eyebrow. "You really don't know Jack, do you?"

"What's that supposed to mean?" Bekah growled.

"Oh come on, what was one of the first things I told you when you tricked me into coming into Atlanta?" Lexi asked. "I told you that Jack is liar. He always lies when it suits him best. The fact that that didn't stick with you is really telling."

"Exactly," Chyna agreed. "He's a chronic cheater. I'd be more surprised if he hadn't cheated on you. Actually I'd be really surprised." All three girls turned to look at him.

Jack opened his mouth as if to speak, then as if realizing he was being backed into a corner promptly clamped it shut.

Lexi wasn't going to let him get away with this. If she had to tell the truth about everything, he was going to have to as well. "So who is it? Your assistant? What's her name again, Gwen? Or the pretty little thing who works the front desk at your apartment? Or better yet a total stranger?" Lexi chirped, beside herself.

"I…I…" he stuttered averting his eyes. For once he was speechless.

"I can't believe you. You're scum…" Lexi drawled. She hadn't been sure, but his little stammer gave it all away. He sure as hell was blatantly lying to Bekah. Why he would want to ruin the sweet gig he had set up here was beyond her, but then again if she had to deal with the bitch everyday it would cause her to go crazy too.

"Jack?" Bekah asked eyeing him closely.

"Baby, you know I love you," he said reaching for her hand. Bekah let him take it, but her eyes were still narrowed in his direction.

"Has there been someone else?" she demanded watching him stroke the top of her hand.

"There's no one for me but you," he said looking her square in the baby blue eyes.

Chyna snorted and Lexi rolled her own chocolate-colored eyes. Adam muttered under his breath, "What a sidestep." If Adam was getting involved in the mockery that was Jack and Bekah's relationship, then Lexi knew it must be a ridiculous scene.

"You promise?" Bekah cooed back at him. Though her voice had lost its edge from talking to Lexi, her eyes were still sharp. She had clearly put too much stock in this wedding, this dream she had made for herself.

Lexi had been dismayed a year ago when Jack had called her insisting that she come to Atlanta to meet his girlfriend, because she was the type of person who desperately wanted to be married. After Bekah's confession last year about planning the entire thing to get rid of Lexi's hold on Jack, Lexi had been sure it was all just a façade. Bekah didn't need to get married. She didn't need her parent's permission to move in with Jack. She wasn't this perfect little princess everyone else clearly made her out to be. She was a conniving, manipulative bitch who did whatever was in her manner to get what she wanted.

Now standing in front of Bekah and seeing her feed into Jack's every pleading word made her reconsider her earlier conviction. Bekah appeared more in love with getting married than ever listening to reason. The woman was not even twenty-five years old and already she was determined and, as far as Lexi could tell, desperate to be married. The fact that Jack was a philandering ass seemed to be something she could look over. For all Lexi carried for the woman, she didn't think she deserved better than that…she deserved no less than to be miserable for the remainder of her days.

Jack nodded slowly linking his fingers with Bekah's, and Lexi could barely stifle the gag that was threatening to be released from her body. She knew that she had been weaker by far when it came down to Jack's own sky blue eyes then Bekah was being right now, but she couldn't fathom it any longer.

And in that moment, she felt as if she had just gone through a turning point. For some reason kneeing Jack in the balls hadn't been as clear as this moment. That look in Bekah's eyes of complete and utter devotion and complete and utter stupidity was enough to fully change Lexi. Whether Jack actually loved Bekah or just loved the idea of Bekah was something Lexi would never know, but what she did know in that moment was that it no longer concerned her. Jack and Bekah no longer concerned her. Whether they ever got married, whether they lived happily ever after, or whether they skinned each other alive did not matter to her, and that made her smile.

"You know what I'm through," Lexi said her smile growing with how true that statement was. "I thought I needed to go to this wedding to finally get Jack out of my system, and to work things out with Ramsey." She wasn't sure why she was telling everyone this, but if she had it her way she would never see any of them again. "And I've accomplished both of those things. This entire week has made me realize that I got over Jack a long, long time ago. I was just so lost in the past that I couldn't see the person I had become. And the person I am now doesn't need to go to this wedding to get over a guy she never even dated," she said sending a seething glare in Jack's direction. "And anyway I never much liked the circus, so you can count me out."

Lexi turned away from the crowd of people that had gathered and walked over to her best friend. She knew that Chyna was mad with her for what had happened with John, but she hoped that she could see past that right now. She hoped they would be able to work it out later like they had with everything else. "Are you coming with me?" Lexi asked her.