Ash: Devil's Crucifix MC (23 page)

“Wow.” Detective Diamond steps forward. “I am glad to see you’re not injured or worse. That was some good thinking on your part. I want to ask you again if you knew who this guy was or do you have a guess why he would target you?”

“No idea. Maybe because I parked so far away in the parking lot? I only did that so I could change clothes. It was stupid.”

I pipe in, breaking Dani’s rule, “You’re not stupid. It’s not your fault.” Her green doe eyes look up at me with tears forming at the rims.

“Do you think this may have something to do with the fire at your apartment or the other fires you’ve been on the scene for? We talked to the Chief who mentioned that you’ve been on-duty for a lot of the arsons.”

“I have no idea. I don’t think so. I don’t know who burned down the apartment or the other buildings. I’m not a fire department detective or arson specialist.” Dani was doing her best to bite her tongue and take out the obvious sarcasm.

“Okay. We get that. But if you can think of anyone who may have a grudge against you -- an old boyfriend maybe... “ Detective Lane looks over at me, clearly suspecting the tattooed giant of a man standing guard over her victim. “Just give me a call. We may need to speak to you later, but I know you’re eager to get home. Where can we reach you in case we need you?”

“I -- I --” Dani stumbles on this. Going back to the Piedmont was completely out of question. Spark knows she’s there and that she may be heading back. If he knows that Remmy is dead, we can’t afford to let her be in harm’s way.

“She’ll be with me at a friend’s house until she recovers.” I say, resoundly. Detective Diamond eyes me, trying to figure out my motives before I can tell him directly through our back channels. “It’s 1800 North Henry.”

The two detectives leave satisfied, wishing Dani well as they go.

Another hour passes before Dani’s ready to talk again asking me to change the channel from an annoyingly loud game show. Soon after, the nurse brings along her discharge papers and a pack of painkillers for her to use as needed. Within minutes, we’re walking out of the hospital and towards the small parking garage. She grabs hold of my hand as we near the car, and I can tell that her memories of what happened to her will never completely fade. Some scars like this just don’t go away. I pull her into me as I open her door for her and buckle the seatbelt around her waist.

I drive us to a safehouse we don’t usually use anymore. It’s an older, beachside home. If you passed it by in your car, you’d never notice it behind the large bushes and the overgrown ivy. It’s just a one bedroom with a small galley kitchen and a living room with a wood-burning fire oven.

As Dani stands in the doorway, I can tell she’s had just about enough for the day. I can’t bear to see her so weak, so tired. I scoop her tiny body into my arms, carrying her in a cradle towards the bedroom. The floorboards creak under our weights as I give her the short tour. She nods silently as she drapes her arms around my neck, just barely hanging on.

I place her down on the clean quilt I told one of the boys to bring by earlier while we were still in the hospital. I can smell the fresh fabric softener as I pull the sheets and covers around her. She leans back on the pillows, curling her body up in a small ball. I lean down and kiss her softly, our lips just barely touching and our eyes open and holding onto the other.

Outside, I hear the sound of a motorcycle or two pull into the driveway. Dani doesn’t seem to notice, but she does whisper something to me as I walk out the door towards the living room. “Ash, please stay with me.”

My heart swells as I close bedroom door to the outside. “I’m here for as long as you want me.” What’s outside can wait a little while longer. Tonight, Dani needs me, and I won’t break my promise to leave her again. 

I don’t know exactly how long I’ve been asleep for -- maybe a couple hours now, but I awake with a complete jolt as if my body is flying towards that fire truck once again.

I roll over in a panic to where Ash was lying next to me last. His warm body had rocked me to sleep while I tried my hardest not to cry. With him next to me, I at least feel safe. I feel far away from what had happened to me in that car and to what I had done to that man.

Still, in my dreams, I wrestled with the thought of being a murderer. I wanted Remmy dead. I wanted him gone, and I had made an actual plan on how to do it. It wasn’t unintentional or even an accident. Slamming my car into the fire truck showed that there is something in me so dark, so evil that I could let a person with a family and a soul die on my hands. It was in my dreams I could see that white sheet covering his face, red soaking through. 

I want Ash to tell me everything is going to be okay, and trust that he will keep these demons from following me. After all, he had been fighting that darkness back, as well. He seems to come to terms with it, but I can feel that there is a little bit of him that hasn’t exactly forgiven himself -- at least for his brother and sister-in-law.

Yet, he’s not here to tell me everything was going to be okay or to remind me he is never leaving me again. His spot under the sheets is cold. It has to be at least hours since he was lying next to me. My senses flood me as panic takes over. I can suddenly hear the sound of hushed voices and creaking floorboards. We’re not alone.

I walk quickly towards the shut door, not caring that Ash must have changed my clothes for me so I am only wearing one of his old t-shirts and the same pair of tight shorts. I had to stay unseen anyway. I press my ears to the thin plywood and listen in.

“Why here? You know he used to co--”

“I know that. It’s fine. I’ve got this worked out. Don’t worry about that right now, Duane.”

“Listen Ash, I think we have to get the fuck out there and look for him. If he finds out that that stupid motherfucker Remmy is dead, what do you think he’s gonna do? He’s gonna go apeshit and come after us one by one. He already tried to blow you up!”

Ash scolds him harshly, “Lower your fucking voice, Aaron. I don’t want you to wake her up.”

“Well, what about that damn girl, anyway? I mean, I give her props for killing the traitor, but is she really the bait we want for this? Can she handle it?”

My mouth drops open at the word ‘bait.’ Ash has never given me any reason to think that what is going on between us isn’t real, but perhaps I had just seen what I want to see. If he were desperate to get the job done right, it would make sense to use someone like me as a middleman. I am unsuspecting, willing, and apparently easily manipulated.

I am seconds away from barging into the living room and breaking up whatever motorcycle brute club meeting there were having, but Ash’s words catch me. “Shut the hell up, Johnny! We are
not
using Dani as bait. She’s here because she needs our
protection
. And I expect each and every one of you motherfuckers to bow to her on your goddamn knees. She didn’t want to do it, but she managed to take out the traitor before
any
of us could. And she did it without us even asking.”

There’s a brief silence when another, more stoic voice chimes in. I can hear him stand to his feet and pat someone, maybe Ash, on the back as he adds, “I agree with you, Ash. We owe that chick, and I’m willing to ride out for her and make sure she gets the vengeance she needs.”

That word.
Again.
Seriously? “Vengeance?”
What the hell is up with Ash’s crew and revenge? I get that this man has done some horrible things. I mean, when I dream, I want to do some pretty terrible stuff to him, too, but that doesn’t mean I want to take his life with my own bare hands. I know that, realistically, this is who Ash is. He commands people to do horrible things. He has already told me about the drug runs, the dealings, the bribes. He knows cops and detectives and has connections with businessmen and politicians. And it isn’t just confined to Sterling -- his influence is everywhere on the west coast down to Mexico where he gets his stashes.

He is the man in the ivory tower looking down at his minions doing his bidding for him. Now, he wants me to join him up there all because I have a nice ass and managed to accidentally kill a guy who tried to kidnap me. Despite everything I feel for him and want for him, I can’t bring myself to see me as that girl in a leather jacket on the back of some guy’s bike that just ignores that her partner was sleeping with every dirty chick who offers to blow him while moving his chess pieces around the board with an iron fist.

And I certainly can’t be with someone so hell bent on getting his revenge that he is willing to risk himself or others for a taste of blood. Seeing this barbaric, wild side of him is like unlocking reality.

I know I have to get out of here. But I can’t just run back to the police. I had lied to them, and even though I think that female detective knew I wasn’t giving her the whole story, I couldn’t go back there now and recant everything. What I feel for Ash is real, so real that my heart is being torn in two. I can’t give him or his club away just like that.

The only options are either trying to stop Ash from going through with his plan of killing that Spark guy or make a clean getaway and hope he doesn’t come after me.

Oh wait, who am
I
thinking of? Of course he’ll come after me! Nothing has stopped him from finding me, and it’s not like I have been able to stay away either. Whatever is out there in the universe, it’s putting us together for a reason. Maybe it’s because I am supposed to be his savior -- I am supposed to show him the way out of this mess so he isn’t in the dark any longer. I hate thinking of myself like that, but there are no alternatives. I’ve got to save Ash’s soul tonight.

I listen back in on the men’s conversation. Ash is in the middle of discussing his plan, giving orders for where each of his guys should go. “...Security is okay where they are. Trainers should be on alert with their young guns. Tell ‘em this isn’t a time to be a hero. We aren’t awarding patches for being Rambo tonight.”

Like good soldiers, three voices answers back, “Yes, sir.”

“I want the enforcers out at each of our houses. Tell them to evacuate everyone, especially family. Send them to their mama’s houses, and if they don’t have family or friends to stay with that aren’t connected to the club, we’ll set them up with something.”

A man clears his throat. It’s that same guy from before, Johnny, who points out, “That’s fine and good, sir, but that doesn’t exactly find Spark. That just puts us on defense.”

“We know where Spark is going to be already. He said he was going to kill Dani if I didn’t meet him by dawn at the Piedmont Hotel, so he’s going to get his wish. I’m going down there alone. And we’re going to finish this once and for all.” 

I gasp, forgetting myself. My hand covers my mouth as I try to take back that sound. I just can’t get over the shock of hearing that the man who had me at gunpoint was intending to kill me after all. Those horrible, skin crawling moments with him eying and touching me might have been the last thing I had ever experienced. And even worse, it was all a trap to get Ash to sacrifice himself for me in vain. If my heart could break even more, it would, but I’m still trying to pick up the crumbles from earlier.

“Boss, you can’t go there alone. At least let one of us follow or stake the place. We could send Duane. He looks really inconspicuous. Or we can even send some of our younger guys like Marco or Vin. They know the place from following the girl and they’re young enough that Spark wouldn’t recognize him.”

“He’s been casing Dani so I have no doubt he would recognize at least one of those guys. Duane, well, I just can’t risk you, man. The club needs you around in case I don’t make it out. This, boys, I’ve got to do myself. No cops, no nothing. While I’m gone, I’m putting Aaron in charge. You all hear me now that those are my wishes.”

“We hear you, sir,” a voice answers softly from the side of where the door is. “Good luck.”

There’s the pounding of feet as each man stands to take Ash by the hand and pound him on his back. The group leaves slowly after, neither lingering around past that. It’s hard to imagine a world like this, but Ash’s word is law, and they obey his every command. 

I quickly run back to the bed with moments to formulate my plan. I have to hold Ash off as long as possible to keep him from going to that meeting with Spark at the Piedmont, and I can’t give it away that I am trying to interfere. As I pull the covers over me and curl my legs back into my stomach, it dawns on me that Ash, my warrior, really does have one weakness: me.

I keep one eye faintly open, watching Ash as he saunters in through the door as if nothing has happened. But outside his movements, I can see his distorted face, the hollow look in his eyes. If he is even having a shred of doubt, maybe my plan will work.

He strips his clothing off, fully revealing himself, and then slips in the bed with me, recreating the pose we were in when I fell asleep with his arm resting in a P shape for me to lay upon. I feel him try to shift my weight, but I stir, startling him. He whispers apologetically to me, “Sorry about that, Dani. I didn’t mean to wake you.”

I stretch my words out, my voice in a much higher pitch as I ask innocently, “Where did you go? It felt like you were gone forever.”

“Just to the, uh, bathroom. You can go back to sleep now. I’m here.” He leans over and kisses me gently on my cheek. His warm mouth flutters against my skin so the moisture lingers. I turn slightly onto my side, and reaching behind me, grab his thick arm to place around my chest. His body follows, spooning up against me so that the only thing between us is my pair of shorts and his old scratchy t-shirt.

I hum slightly, leaning the back of my head into his chest so he can get a whiff of my shampoo, “You feel so good, Ash.” My hips slightly sway into the crook of his body with my ass resting just above his hips. I can feel him hesitate, as if he isn’t sure if he should act on his feelings. But even just my minor movements are causing something down there to stir.

I feel him take a deep breath in, inhaling me into his senses, as he answers back, “I don’t want to push you to do anything you don’t want to, but damn, if you keep moving those hips like that, I’m going to have to take you.”

I roll over towards him quickly before he can stop me. In one swift move, I hitch my leg over his hip and force him back down into the bed so I am straddling him. I rip off that t-shirt, and stare down at him with wanting eyes. Even though this is all part of my plan, I can’t help but feel my own blood spike and the senses between my legs twinge as I stare down at my chiseled sculpture of a man. Despite being in the dark of this small cabin home, I can still see the flicker in his eyes say back to me, “Game on.”

I lower my head to his chest and open my mouth slightly. Nothing in me has ever wanted to taste someone as badly as I want a lick of him. My tongue begins along the base of his neck and moves between the lines of his chest. His pecks give me ample space to cover as I travel the long length of his torso. Ash tastes of salt and earth. It’s everything a guy should taste like and more. Even his smell is something tribal and dangerous. He’s forbidden fruit.

My tongue dashes around his belly button till it finds the small trail of hair pointing its way downwards. I stop and look up at him, my mouth almost wide open. His hands, wrapped in the white bed sheets, reach up and grab a chunk of my messy hair. They guide me down, down, down till that smell of his cock fills my nostrils.

Ash is already semi-hard, and I smile wickedly at the thought that I have the power to whip him up in a frenzy with just a few moves of my hips and a spread of my tongue. If he likes what I just did to him seconds ago, he’s going to be completely lost when I get my mouth around that shaft of his.

But I don’t go for it right away. I want to dominate him some more, make him feel like mush under my control. I want him absolutely dying for me. Instead of taking him deep in my mouth, I plant kisses around his base, careful not to touch the actual skin of his dick. When I’m done circling, I open my lips and blow hot warm up and down his length, again being careful to not touch my lips to him. Ash sits up, curiously watching me from the head of the bed. I push aside his hands as he tries to get me down.