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Authors: Jack L. Chalker

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I bet that's what they're doing now, setting it all up. Then on one of their big nights, like Halloween or something, they'll come for you. It might be months, but they'll start to work on you before that. You remember going out like an animal and killing that guy . . . Don't look so surprised, we were all there. Well, they can take you a lot lower than that. Drugs, hypnosis, their other crazy powers— they're like little gods even now." She sighed. "I wish I knew what to tell you, but I don't. One thing sure is that they'll break you. They can break anybody. But if you get away like that, you won't last as a virgin for ten minutes with that body, and if you're not a virgin any more they'll just let you stay like this forever and find another sucker. I mean, remember, if they can change
you
into
that
they can sure as hell change some other virgin into you—and they'll find one eventually."

That was sombering news. Damned literally if she did nothing, damned to life as someone else with no hope of ever breaking it if she did something, and the clock was most certainly running.

"I got to go," Maria said. "They get real sticky if you're too far off your schedule of duties."

They got up, walked back to the cabin and went inside. Maria went to the supplies and removed an object that almost looked like a dead snake with something tied on to it. "I know this isn't much, but you never had much practice with your hands. It's made from local vines, so that spell or whatever it is should let you wear it. Hang it on those gorgeous hips. This little thing on the side holds a gourd; I've brought one, hollowed out. If you want to take something to drink with you, wear this, pour it in the gourd, and shove this cork in like this. It isn't much, but it's the best I could do."

Angelique could only wipe away the tears and plead,
Please come back soon!

Marie gave her a sad smile. "If they let me, I will."

She was so grateful to the nurse that she kissed and hugged her, and she watched Maria go back through the jungle with a renewed sense of hope mixed with caution. She didn't hold it against the nurse that she'd been forced to join the enemy; she had no doubt of their persuasive powers, and that was what worried her now.

She tried on the vine belt and experimented with the gourd holder, and was delighted to see that both worked and that no force pulled the vine from her nor did it burn or irritate. Nothing had been flung away since the Dark Man's visit, but every time she'd tried putting on any kind of clothing or cloth it had begun to burn like fire. From the rags and cloths they provided and from the remains of her torn clothes she'd tried things, but they had all started to burn within a few minutes and she'd had to remove them. Now she realized it must be an allergy to all sorts of processed cloths and synthetics.

Partly to clear her mind and give her a chance to think, she went out into the jungle and found large leaves of the right size and some of the common type of vine used in making the belt. Using the kitchen tools and a lot of patience, she fashioned a front and rear leaf loin cloth and tried it. It took a lot of adjustment and fiddling, but it worked and did not burn and she was delighted. She felt like Eve, using a fig leaf to cover her lower parts. She went over to the mirror and looked at herself.

She looked, she thought, like somebody you saw in the back pages of
National Geographic.

Still, her loincloth made her feel better, more human, somehow, and less debased.

That night she went over to the beach, found some shells and some small leafy vines. She took to the long, methodical work of creating something with her own hands as if she'd been doing it forever, although there were many breaks and wrong decisions and steps back to the beginning.

Finally, though, by the light of the lanterns, she managed to create a primitive necklace of shells, small, light volcanic stones, and laurel-like leaves, and also a headband which helped control her hair.

She was admiring her handiwork in the mirror when she suddenly felt an unwelcome presence enter the room. She looked into the mirror and could see nothing reflected there, but when she turned,
he
was there. No eyes or other features could be seen in that face of total black, yet she felt his gaze.

"Very attractive," the Dark Man noted approvingly. "Very—primitive. It might start a new fad."

"Very funny," she responded. She felt too much hatred and contempt for the Dark Man to fear him, although she respected his power and knew his danger. "I thought I was rid of you for a while yet."

"Oh, no. The past few weeks have been a bit of seasoning, a period of adjustment for you.

We've removed some cumbersome baggage from you. You are tougher now, and far more self confident and self-sufficient. The whimpering, self-pitying cripple has been displaced by a newer woman, and perhaps a better one. In a few weeks the girl who was too shy and too modest and too morally hamstrung to even allow cleavage to show now walks naked with little thought of who is watching. The girl who was so helpless she took an hour to figure out a manual can opener now studies and creates basic clothing and even adornment with those same hands. The little would-be nun has been stripped of some of her civilized veneer. Tell me, what did you think of our—services?''

"You mean those abominations in the cursed meadow? Horrible. Grotesque. Insane. Each day and night I pray for your victims."

"And, no doubt, ask God to intervene and strike us dead— but He does not. He hears, but he does not. By the way, there was a telelink today between Mr. McGraw and you. Settled a lot of matters and got you on the record as desiring to assume all the burdens of the estate. McGraw will continue as your attorney, which pleases him."

She frowned. "I made no such contact and you know it."

"Oh, but you did. Because of your paralyzed condition, it was necessary to do it by conference so you could be seen. It's amazing when you think that such signals are actually made up of little tiny pixels, little dots, each with only a little information, and the sound and video are reduced to digital form. All of this, of course, is handled via SAINT's telecommunications net. The fact is, to him you looked bright and cheerful and quite happy and natural, yet your image and voice existed only within the computer. It's amazing what modern electronics can do these days."

She could hardly believe him, yet she dared not disbelieve him, either. No one was wondering or worried about her in the outside world, because they could produce her, authorizing what they wanted and reassuring anyone who wondered, on demand through electronic wizardry. In many ways, that power was as great as the other more supernatural powers the Dark Man displayed.

"Your existence belies your confidence," she shot back. "If all is going so much your own way, and you control this entire island, why is it still necessary for you to adopt this disguise which alters your voice and makes your features nothing? It seems a lot of trouble for someone without worries."

"Oh, this is for a different reason than that, but it is not one that you have to know right now. I am no one you know or have ever met, yet this is still necessary for now. We will discuss it no more at this point."

"And what do you intend with me now, then?"

"A comparison. Two women. Two possibilities. The world is full of possibilities and biographies are the stuff of possibilities. Let us consider just one."

There was a sudden sense of dizziness and some disorien-tation, and then she was floating, floating in something but without sight or sound or other sensation. No, wait—images suddenly appeared, very blurry at first, but getting clearer, and distant muffled voices became progressively louder and clearer to her ears.

She was lying in a bed in a room painted light green. A hospital bed, surely, in some modern
facility. The pain hit almost immediately, and wracked her body. All parts seemed in pain, the
agony forcing her to cry out and beg for help from those in the room, but she could not speak or
move.

"Should I administer a sedative, Doctor?" the nurse asked, looking down at her. "There's just
something about her eyes, like she can really understand what we're saying."

"Don't read more into her than is there, Jenny," the doctor responded. "It's always tragic to see
them when they're young and pretty, but she's a vegetable, with little more feeling than a blade of
grass or a tree. It's only damned corporate politics that we don't disconnect the intravenous tubes
and let her starve and die. They are paying a fortune to keep her legally alive for some reasons of
their own, but she's gone. Only her shell remains, like Karen Quintan and the other body-live,
brain-dead. Such a tragedy."

"No, no!" she tried to shout to them. "I think! I am in terrible pain! I need help! I am truly
alive!" But nothing came out. She had no power to move or communicate in any way.

"But her eyes are partly open some of the time

like now," the nurse pointed out. "I'd swear
she knows we're here.''

"Yes! Yes! I
do
know! Oh, help me!"

"We've tried talking to her, getting her to blink if she understands us, but it's no use. Forget it,
nurse. Don't let your imagination run away with you. Just maintain the current levels and keep
the monitors going." He sighed. "Poor thing. With the size of that annuity for her and even
today's medical knowledge, she could be like this, for the next fifty years.
..."

She was still screaming at them inwardly, unable to control a thing, when she was aware that both the pain and the vision were fading and she was floating once again. The experience was so horrible, the absence of pain so intense a relief, that she almost passed out. She didn't know how long the episode had lasted, but it was the most horrifying experience of her entire life, the stuff of nightmares.

"Choose," came the voice of the Dark Man from all around her. "Now choose, but consider this alternative."

She opened her eyes and gazed deeply into the fire and drew strength and power from the spirit
it contained. She crouched there a while, but then stood and raised her arms and beckoned all the
spirits and demons to attend her. And they were there, and responded to her call, in every tree, in
every blade of grass, in every brief gust of wind that struck her almost naked body, and they let
their power flow into her. Her body tingled with a totally erotic sense that none else here could
understand, the power begetting power and giving off pleasure as a side effect.

She was a virgin, by their standards, yet the tribe all called her Mother and she saw them all,
young and old, male and female, strong and weak, as her children. What could they know, from
their few minutes of climax, what the spirits and demons could give to one who was one with
them, give eternally and on demand?

She gestured with her right hand, and the fire flared up, a torchlike column that seemed to have
a life of its own suspended in air. In its illumination she could see them all, her children, on their
knees to her, praying to her, watching with awed eyes and fear in their souls, fear she had placed
there and fear they had accepted as the price of her protection.

She gestured with her left hand and a great wind came, like some living thing, and swirled
around the column of fire and kissed each of the worshippers in turn, then flowed inward to the
small stone idol that sat on a bed of straw between the fire and the crowd.

It was crudely fashioned, but now it seemed to glow and pulse and throb like a living thing, and
they all saw and made supplication to it, calling on it by name.

"Dobak! Dobak! Protect us! Dobak! Dobak! God of the Hapharsi! Protect thy children from
harm and bless our hunt!"

And the demon flowed from the idol into her body, and took it for use as its own, for certainly it
was Dobak's to use and willingly so. And while it performed its magic rites and demanded its
sacrifices and its blood, her own self was plunged into a realm of indescribable pleasures and
delights, orgasm after orgasm, through her mind and body, and she heard not what was being
said or done in her body and cared not. So wondrous were the sensations that although a tiny
corner of her saw her hands come up, then descend with the knife and plunge it into the writhing,
crying body of the infant girl-child upon the altar, she did not care. And at the moment the
sacrifice died, she felt that sensation rise to undreamed-of heights as the youth and energy of the
child's soul flowed into her while the agony and pain were absorbed by the demon within.

'"The sacrifice is good,'' she heard the demon say with her lips, ' 'and the hunt will be good, and
the women of the tribe will be blessed with many strong and healthy children who will not die too
young. This I grant, so long as you worship me."

And they roared and chanted its unholy name, and buried their faces in the earth. And the
sensations slowly subsided as the demon flowed from her body and back to the idol, but she felt
the lingering, tingling sensations and would for some time to come, and she knew her power was
increased and her body made well of all its ills and younger, too. As the demon prepared to leave
its effigy, she, too, sank to her knees and prayed to the great god of the tribe in thanks, and
suddenly she was floating once again.

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