Never Get Enough (Enough #1) (3 page)

Chapter 2

Carter

             
Keller held me and I could hear him just breathing me in. I know he loved me differently than I loved him, and I just prayed that at college he would be able to find the girl that could love him the way he deserved. He had fulfilled so many needs for me, but he had never inspired my fantasies like Brayden had. Ever since I started living here, Bray had been my best friend, but I had always wanted him to be more. He had always coddled and loved me. Never too busy to play ball or talk to me, anywhere he was invited I was always welcome, or he wouldn’t go. But I never felt like he saw anything more. I always knew I was his number one priority, but in what I thought was a combination of best friend and little sister.

             
Everything these last few months has been changing though. These boys are the only security I have ever had in my life, and they have both started changing how they are towards me. Slowly they have been looking at me with a different emotion in their eyes. I have always known that boys like how I look. I have been asked on a ton of dates, and I can feel men’s eyes follow me in public. But Keller and Brayden are so much sexier than any other guy I have ever seen, and they have always made me feel cherished and safe. Now I still feel safe with them, but I also feel a little lost by the way Keller looks at me now and excited by the way Brayden does. I feel confused at how their interests are more focused on me in everything I say and do. They have beautiful, way more experienced girls throw themselves at them all the time, so I don’t really understand what the draw could be to me. Keller has even told me he truly loves me, and I have tried to explain to him that I can’t hold him back. I don’t see him the same way, but he is determined not to give up on there being an us.

             
I take a deep breath and then try to give Keller the supportive speech he needs before he leaves, “Kell, I know that you are going to love it down there. Show them how a real defense gets it done.” I give him a pat on the back and continue, “We will be there for your first game against Georgia Tech. You can show us around then, okay?” I look up at his face and realize he looks like he is barely holding together. I have no idea how I am not attracted to him just then. He is just so gorgeous. Dark brown hair shaved close to his head with his green eyes bright and glowing in his chiseled face with his full lips and perfect teeth all make for one of the most handsome faces I have ever seen.

I don’t even know how he can be feeling right now. Since their mom died the boys have only had each other and then me. He now has to leave both of us and start a fresh life on his own. He finally replies back to me
forcefully as he tries to hold it together, “I will show them how it’s done, Princess. Don’t you worry. Get ready to watch me kick some college football ass!” He then gives me a quick kiss on the cheek and a big hug. He turns to Brayden and gives him a guy hug with a hard pat and then tells him in a soft, serious voice, “Love you, bro, and take care of our girl.” Brayden says, “Love you too, man, and you know I will.” He looks at us both one last time and then hops into his brand new F350. He thought he would fit in more with the football team with that than his Aston Martin at college, and he could move his stuff down there easier too.  He drives away while watching me through the rearview mirror and my eyes fill with tears.

             
Brayden steps beside me to hold me close and whispers to me that it is going to be okay. I know it is and I am really excited about our senior year together. I am going to try to let loose and maybe Brayden does feel more for me that I thought he did. Still am going to miss Keller though and the quiet consistency he has always provided in my life.

             
We were just staring at the empty drive until finally Brayden asks, “Whatcha wanna do now?” I sigh and hate to say it but have to, “Gotta go for a run. Do you wanna join me?” He nods and says, “That’s a great way to get our minds off Keller, and I need to log some miles before football anyway. Go get changed and I will meet you at the car in ten minutes. We’ll take one of our old trails so maybe we can see enjoy some nature and get some exercise. Sound good?”

             
I start racing to my room and shout, “Whoever the last person to get to the car has dinner cleanup.” I hear something crash and then him yell, “Oh, hell, no!” I chuckle to myself and think this is going to be a good day. I run back out in my sports bra and workout shorts and just look at Brayden. If Keller is so handsome a girl can hardly think, then Brayden is so sexy a girl can hardly breathe. His hair is longer than Keller’s and dark blond. He has dark blue eyes and really chiseled features like Keller. His are sharper though and somehow less perfect but sexier. When he smiles at me, I feel a tightening everywhere. His body is so tight with an eight pack and super muscular arms. He is naturally dark tan and it gets even darker during the summer when we are outside so much

             
Finally, I realize he is just staring at me while I stare at him. I get embarrassed and look down. But Brayden won’t put up with that. He throws me over his shoulder and starts humming “I Like Big Butts” I speak up in protest at that, “Hey, should that song be a hint since you are carrying me?” He just laughs and replies, “Come on, baby, nothing about you except maybe for you boobs could be classified as big.” I laugh at that and he puts me softly in the car and says, “Best way to start my day is a run with my girl. Let’s do this every day.” I can feel my heart start to beat faster and I start to hope that he really does feel something more for me, that I could actually live my dream of being with Brayden in every way.

We continue that routine of me making breakfast and then go for a long run all week. It was nice and we were just being best buds hanging out, and I did feel some sexual tension but wondered if it was just me. Until finally I had to start working on the dance team’s new routine for the first pep rally of the school year since I would be the team captain
this year. So I told Brayden, after I cooked that I would be in the gym and not able to run. He said that was fine and he would just run on the treadmill while I worked on a routine so we could still hang out.

             
I do get hot and sweaty when I dance so I wear as little as I possibly can when I’m working on new choreography for a routine, but today I was also thinking of what I could wear that would get a response from  Brayden. I love being so close to him, but just hanging out and spending time with him doesn’t feel like enough anymore. I want to be with him, and I want to kiss and touch him. I don’t want to go back to school without us being together, but I don’t know how to make that happen. So I thought about just trying to be provocative enough to push him into making some kind of move on me. I think he wants to be with me in that way, but he also doesn’t want to push me before I am ready. So I just have to let him know how ready I am.

             
I decide to just wear a supportive black bra with lace and rhinestones that shows an excessive amount of cleavage with some black boy shorts down to the gym. It doesn’t reveal more than my bathing suit really, but I think it could definitely signal to him that I am ready for a grown up relationship between us. I look at myself in the mirror, and I know he loves my blond hair and blue eyes, which are standing out against the black. I just pray I look grown up enough for him to want to make me his. I am so ready to have the right to kiss and touch him all the time; not just like a best friend either. I know now that I want him to see me as a woman and not just a little girl.

             
I start stretching and warming up. I am leaned over with my ass sticking out and the music pumping when he walks in all casual until his eyes focus on me. I see him in the mirror take a deep breath and then another. He is so amazingly hot. Because of football his whole body is rock solid, hard, and toned. His dark blue eyes always soften when he looks at me. His dark blond hair is going every which way. He got so frustrated that he shaved it all off onetime, and then I cried because I loved his hair. He was so mad that he upset me; he punched a hole in the wall in frustration. He never shaved it all again. Finally he says, “Holy fuck, Carter! What are you trying to do to me with that outfit barely on? I thought you were just going to work on your routine. Not show me how you would look if you danced naked. Shit, how can anybody’s body be that perfect?” I stand up and start walking toward him with a smile. I normally feel so shy about anything with sex or my body because I don’t know a lot about it. I have zero experience with guys in these kinds of situations, but I do know I love the way that Brayden is staring at me, especially my breasts. He’s looking at me with a heavy desire in his eyes.             

             
I finally stand in front of him and feel the base of the music. “Bray,” I stare at him while I talk, “I don’t know anything about kissing or touching.” Then I get shy about what I am saying and have to take another breath to calm my nerves. “Please, will you show me what it’s all about? I want to be all yours.” He has to take a deep breath and I can see the pulse in his neck form from excitement or nerves, “Of course, I will take care of you in every way you want, Carter. I just never want to go farther than you want to go. So if you want to do something you are going to have to get over the embarrassment and tell me. I can’t just guess what you are and aren’t ready for.” Then he reaches behind me and grabs my ass and lifts me up against him while he cups me. He leans in and kisses me softly at first and then harder and grounds me a little against him. A moan comes out of me cause it just feels so good to be this close to him. His tongue slowly inches into my mouth and as he pulls it out I bite his lip because I just want even that part of him to stay inside me. He moans and then says quietly, “Patience, baby. We don’t want to rush all this, but we want to enjoy every part of it.” I can hardly think or breathe, I am feeling so many things just from kissing him, and he is lecturing me on patience.

             
I start to pout and I know my lower lip has come out a little. He sets me on my feet and sits down then pulls me in his lap. “What’s wrong, baby, why the pouty face after kissing me?” I turn around on his lap so I can face him and try to explain, “I felt so much just from you kissing me and then putting your tongue in my mouth. It’s like I wanted to crawl inside you and I would still never get enough. I just don’t understand how much emotion just suddenly took me over. I didn’t want it to stop.” He smiled and said, “Carter, I have felt like that just from just looking at you for forever. My heart hurts when I just stare at your face for too long. I want to be inside you, baby. And I will be soon. I promise, but I don’t want us to rush into anything and then you not know how to handle all the new stuff that you and I do because I haven’t given you enough time. So my plan was to start finding who we are together without Keller slowly. Then get to know each other physically at a pace that doesn’t make you uncomfortable.” As he talks he runs his hand through my hair, and I just softened into him as I enjoyed this small intimacy.

             
“The only thing that is making me uncomfortable is wanting what you are refusing to give me right now. Please, Bray, will you just kiss me again?” He nodded slowly. Took some deep breaths and looked like he was trying to gain control himself. “I have to concentrate to hold myself back, but I want to take things slow so I can remember all of your sweetness, baby.” Then he starts kissing me while I sit on his lap, and I just enjoy being this close to him.

Chapter 3

Brayden

             
The next Monday, Carter and I both have to start practices with our teams to get ready for the start of our seasons. We are captains for football and volleyball so we have to be at practices early and be an example for the rest of our teammates. We have both already made all-state last year so we have to meet some high expectations from our coaches for this year. I hate to give up time with just her, and I’ve been dreading the start of football practices which I normally love. We haven’t seen anybody in two weeks, just taking the time for us to be together since Keller left. But being with Carter is the fantasy of every guy at any high school in a sixty mile radius so I know I will hear shit from the guys about us being together. I am happy though that everyone will finally know that Carter is mine.