Becoming Marie Antoinette (57 page)

Would I view Versailles through new eyes, now that I was no longer someone waiting—now that I had
become
?

Marie Antoinette’s enthralling story continues in

DAYS OF SPLENDOR, DAYS OF SORROW

A novel of Marie Antoinette
by Juliet Grey

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TO
: Comte de Mercy-Argenteau, Ambassador to the Court of Versailles

L
A
M
UETTE
, M
AY
21, 1774

“My condolences on the passing of His Majesty, Your Majesty.”

“Your Majesty, my condolences on the death of His Majesty.”

“Permit me, Your Majesty, to tender my deepest condolences on the expiration of His Majesty Louis Quinze.”

One by one they filed past, the elderly ladies of the court in their mandated mourning garb, a murder of broad black crows in panniered gowns, their painted faces greeting each of us in turn—my husband, the new king Louis Seize, and me. We had been the sovereigns of France for two weeks, but under such circumstances elation cannot come without sorrow.

Louis truly grieved for the old king, his late
grand-père
. As for the others, the straitlaced prudes—
collets montés
, as I dubbed them—who so tediously offered their respects that afternoon in the black-and-white-tiled hall at the hunting lodge of La Muette, I found their sympathy, as well as their expressions of felicitations on our accession to the throne, as false as the blush on their cheeks. They had not loved their former sovereign for many decades, if at all. Moreover, they had little confidence in my husband’s ability to rule, and even less respect for him.

“
Permettez-moi de vous offrir mes condoléances. J’en suis désolée
,” I giggled behind my fan to my devoted friend and attendant the princesse de Lamballe, mimicking the warble of the interminable parade of ancient crones. “Honestly, when one has passed thirty, I cannot understand how one dares appear at court.”

I found these old women ridiculous, but there was another cause for my laughter—one that I lacked the courage to admit to anyone, even to my husband. In sober truth, not until today, when we received the customary condolences of the nobility, had the reality
of Papa Roi’s death settled upon my breast. The magnitude of what lay before us, Louis and me, was overwhelming. I was overcome with nerves, and raillery was my release.

The duchesse d’Archambault approached. Sixty years of rouge had settled into her hollowed cheekbones, and I could not help myself. I bit my lip, but a smile matured into a grin, and before I knew it a chuckle had burbled its way out of my mouth. When she descended into her reverence I heard her knees creak and felt certain she would not be able to rise without assistance.

“Allow me, Your Majesty, to condole you on the death of the king-that-was.” The duchesse lapsed into a reverie. “
Il était si noble, si gentil.…
”

“
Vous l’avez détesté!
” I muttered, then whispered to the princesse, “I know for a fact she despised the king because he refused her idiot son a military promotion.” When the duchesse was just out of earshot, I trilled, “
So noble, so kind.
”

“Your Majesty, it does not become you to mock your elders, especially when they are your inferiors.”

I did not need to peer over my fan to know the voice: the comtesse de Noailles, my
dame d’honneur
, the superintendent of my household while I was dauphine, and my de facto guardian. As the youngest daughter of Empress Maria Theresa of Austria, I had come to Versailles at fourteen to wed the dauphin, and had been not merely educated but physically transformed in order to merit such an august union. Yet there had still been much to learn and little time in which to master it. The comtesse had been appointed my mentor, to school me in the rigid rituals of the French court. For this I had immediately nicknamed her Madame Etiquette, and in the past four years not a day had gone by that I had not received from her some rebuke over a transgression of protocol. Just behind my right shoulder the princesse de Lamballe stood amid my other ladies. Our wide skirts discreetly concealed
another of my attendants, the marquise de Clermont-Tonnerre, who had sunk to her knees from exhaustion. I heard a giggle. The marquise was known to pull faces from time to time and kept all of us in stitches with her ability to turn her eyelids inside out and then flutter them flirtatiously.

“Who are you hiding?” quizzed Madame de Noailles. My ladies’ eyes darted from one to another, none daring to reply.

“
La marquise de Clermont-Tonnerre est tellement fatiguée
,” I replied succinctly.

“That is of no consequence. It is not
comme il faut
. Everyone must stand during the reception.”

I stepped aside. “Madame la marquise, would you kindly rise,” I commanded gently. With the aid of a woman at either elbow she stood, and the vast swell of her belly, straining against her stays, was as evident as the sheen on her brow. “I believe you know the comtesse de Noailles,” I said, making certain Madame Etiquette could see that the marquise was
enceinte
. “I am not yet a mother, mesdames, although I very much pray for that day. I can only hope that when it comes, common sense will take precedence over protocol. And as queen, I will take measures to ensure it.” I offered the marquise my lace-edged handkerchief to blot her forehead. “As there is nowhere to sit, you may resume your former position, madame, and my ladies will continue to provide you with a screen from disapproving eyes.”

I glanced down the hall to see the line of courtiers stopped in front of Louis, a few feet away. I returned my attention to the comtesse de Noailles. We were nose to nose now, and I was no longer an unruly child in her custody. One mother who scolded me at the slightest provocation was sufficient; I had no need of a surrogate. “You and your husband have served France long and faithfully,” I began coolly, “and you have devoted yourselves tirelessly without respite. The time has come, therefore, for you to
take your
congé
. My husband and I will expect you to retire to your estate of Mouchy before the week is out.”

Her pinched face turned as pale as a peeled almond. But there was nothing she could say in reply. One did not remonstrate with the queen of France.

“The princesse de Lamballe will be my new
dame d’honneur
,” I added, noting the expression of surprise in my attendant’s eyes and the modest blush that suffused her cheeks. I had caught her completely unaware, but what better time to reward her loyalty?

The comtesse lowered her gaze and dropped into a deep reverence. “It has been an honor to have served Your Majesty.” The only fissure in her customary hauteur was betrayed by the tremolo in her voice. For an instant I regretted my decision. Yet I had long dreamed of this moment. From now on, I would be the one to choose, at least within my own household, what was
comme il faut
. As the comtesse rose and made her way along the hall to offer her condolences to the king, I felt as though a storm cloud that had followed me about from palace to palace—Versailles, Compiègne, Fontainebleau—had finally lifted, leaving a vibrant blue sky.

At the hour of our ascension to the throne, after the requisite obsequies from the courtiers, we had fled the scene of Louis Quinze’s death nearly as fast as our coach could bear us, spending the first nine days of our reign at the Château de Choisy on the banks of the Seine while the innumerable rooms of Versailles were scrubbed free of the smallpox contagion. Yet I was bursting to return, to begin making my mark. No one alive could recall when a queen of France had been much more than a dynastic cipher. Maria Theresa of Spain, the infanta who wed the Sun King, was almost insignificant at court. She spent much of her time closeted in her rooms drinking chocolate and playing cards with
her ladies and her dwarves and had so little rapport with her subjects that when they were starving for bread she suggested they eat cake instead—this much I had learned from my dear abbé Vermond, who had instructed me in the history of the queens of France when I was preparing to marry the dauphin. The abbé had journeyed to Versailles as my reader, to offer me spiritual guidance, and he remained one of my few confidants.

In any case, Maria Theresa of Spain had died nearly a hundred years ago. And her absence from public life had afforded Louis Quatorze plenty of opportunities to seek companionship in the arms of others. They, not his dull queen, became the arbiters of taste at court.

My immediate predecessor, Marie Leszczyńska, the pious consort of Louis Quinze who died two years before I arrived at Versailles, had been the daughter of a disgraced Polish king forced to live in exile. She bore Louis many useless daughters but only one dauphin to inherit the throne—the father of my husband—and he died while his papa still wore the crown. Like the queen before her, she endured a shadowy existence, maintaining her spotless propriety while my husband’s
grand-père
flaunted his latest
maîtresse en titre
. No one noticed what Marie wore or how she dressed her hair. Instead, it was Madame la marquise de Pompadour who had defined the fashion in all things for a generation. And then Madame du Barry, Louis XV’s last mistress, set the tone, but there was no queen to rival her—only me. And I had failed miserably, never sure of myself, always endeavoring to find my footing, desperate to fascinate a timid husband who could not bring himself to consummate our marriage. I had wasted precious time by allowing the comtesse du Barry to exert her influence not only over the court but over Papa Roi, much to the consternation of my mother.

But I was determined to no longer be a disappointment. Not
to Maman. Not to France. In the aftermath of Louis Quinze’s demise, the du Barry was now consigned to a convent. Her faithful followers at court, the “Barryistes,” would simply have to accustom themselves to the absence of her bawdy wit and gaudy gowns. I was queen; morality and good taste would prevail from now on—though not at the expense of gaiety, glamour, and fun.

The condolences of the nobility at La Muette marked the end of the period of mourning. When the last of the courtiers had risen, the king and I made our way outside to the courtyard, where the royal coach awaited us. I dared not voice my thoughts to Louis but I felt as though we had spent the past ten days in Purgatory and now, as the gilded carriage clattered over the gravel and out onto the open road toward Versailles, where we would formally begin our reign, we were finally on our way to Heaven.

I had first entered the seat of France’s court through the back route in every way—as a young bride traveling in a special
berline
commissioned by Louis Quinze to transport me from my homeland. How eager he had been to show me Versailles, from the Grand Trianon with its pink marble porticoes, to the pebbled
allées
that led past the canals and fountains, all the way to the grand staircases and the imposing château that his
great-grand-père
the Sun King had transformed from a modest hunting
boîte
into an edifice that would rival all other palaces in Europe. And oh, how disappointed I had been on that dreary afternoon: The fountains were dry, the canals cluttered with debris, and the hallways and chambers of the fairyland château reeked of stale urine.