An Honest Ghost (17 page)

Mortes 23

I’ve pulled a lot: Jonathan Ames I Love You 119

Now I am: Walter Benjamin Illuminations 67

I flinched when: Brane Mozetic Banalities 17

Writing is a: Cyril Connolly The Condemned Playground

This night was: David Levithan The Full Spectrum 187

I sat still: Rob Stephenson Passes Through 24

The dahlias were: Jean Genet Funeral Rites 32

My father is: Sylvia Townsend Warner Summer Will Show

81

He arrived late: Brane Mozetic Banalities 5

One of his: Danilo Kiš Encyclopedia of the Dead 3

Understand that I: Teju Cole Open City 188

A father who: Marie Chaix The Laurels of Lake Constance

17

Occultism is the: Theodor Adorno Stars Down to Earth 175

I have been: John Banville The Untouchable 307

Think of the: Frederick Seidel Area Code 212 7

That’s corruption: Robert Frost The Notebooks of Robert

Frost 51

From fifteen on: Gertrude Stein Wars I Have Seen 30

But how can: Leo Bersani A Future for Astyanax 167

“Why am I: Hugh Kenner The Pound Era 24

With history piling: David Lehman, ed. Great American

Prose Poems 151

These questions carry: W. G. Sebald After Nature 106

Should a homosexual: Leo Bersani Homos 113

That’s the thing: Edmund Wilson Axel’s Castle 236

If I had: Albert Camus The Fall 21

“The hero is: Bertolt Brecht Galileo 66

The sooner the: J. M. Coetzee Waiting for the Barbarians

77

Jesus wept: James Joyce Ulysses 38

No spirit exists: Theodor Adorno Stars Down to Earth 179

I surprised myself: Alfred Chester Jamie is My Heart’s

Desire 31

I don’t have: Rebecca Godfrey The Torn Skirt 181

I could use: Wayne Koestenbaum Moira Orfei in Aigues

Mortes 32

Summertime shudders: Richard Strauss Four Last Songs II.

(Hesse)

Four days pass: David Leavitt The Indian Clerk 281

“I need some: Colm Tobin The Master 302

This is not: Theodor Adorno Stars Down to Earth 181

“If you get: Alfred Chester The Exquisite Corpse 178

Thanks for everything: Justin Spring Secret Historian 158

The solitude was: Harry Mathews The Journalist 5

I want to: Mark Scott A Bedroom Occupation 62

But nobody comes: Franz Kafka The Complete Stories 337

24.

Because Joe was: Ron Padgett Joe 185

Joe answered: Ron Padgett Joe 63

As compensation what: Charles Dickens Great

Expectations 164

Ignorant and lazy: James Merrill The Changing Light at

Sandover 15

“Come and sit: D. H. Lawrence Collected Stories Vol IV

1104

He is the: Addicted: Notes from the Belly of the Beast

(Whitaker) 200

“In a recent: Adam Phillips On Balance 162

Yes, he says: Sarah Bakewell How to Live 53

The reasonable man: Edna O’Brien James Joyce 224

“You cannot train: Edward Mendelson Early Auden 20

That, I think: Adam Thirwell Delighted States 26

As the nineteenth-century: Sarah Bakewell How to Live 53

He was soon: Joseph P. Lash Eleanor and Franklin 386

For too many: Marion Meade Eleanor of Acquitaine 267

“I do hope: Douglas Crase Both 195

A letter from: Joseph P. Lash Eleanor and Franklin 345

She felt that: Jack London The Game 92

“Come to Spain: Barbara Pym Jane and Prudence 200

“You know, Joe: D. H. Lawrence Collected Stories Vol IV

1111

Women are not: Henry James Portrait of a Lady 247

There is, I: Fran Lebowitz Reader 105

“What about this: Patrick White Vivisector 419

The next day: D. H. Lawrence Sons and Lovers 105

Her gaiety had: Robert Walser The Assistant 156

She behaved flawlessly: Edna O’Brien James Joyce 148

“Hello, sweetheart: J. D. Salinger Franny and Zooey 188

You see I: Edith Wharton The Age of Innocence 21

“As you know: Colm Tobin The Master 265

I doubted that: Binnie Kirshenbaum Pure Poetry 49

“All my life: Charles Kaiser The Gay Metropolis 192

Certainly there was: Proust Sodom and Gomorrah 52

Maybe a chemical: David Gilbert Remote Feed 206

For Eleanor, the: Marion Meade Eleanor of Acquitaine 238

Presently the lad: D. H. Lawrence Sons and Lovers 4

She said a: Paula Fox The Coldest Winter 78

That is when: Ralph Sassone The Intimates 35

He was still: Richard Ellmann James Joyce 139

She is absurdly: John Banville The Infinities 69

A dim antagonism: James Joyce Portrait of the Artist as a

Young Man 218

Her eyes, however: Henry James Portrait of a Lady 150

But Joe said: James Joyce Dubliners 173

He has a: Richard Ellmann James Joyce 137

“I need a: John Banville The Untouchable 274

The more clearly: Patrick White Vivisector 424

“Yes,” she sighed: Patrick White Vivisector 436

“So there’ll be: Rachel Ingalls Mrs. Caliban 80

Strange words to: J. M. Coetzee Elizabeth Costello 28

“Look here,” he: Sherwood Anderson Winesburg, Ohio 141

“A person’s a: Dr. Seuss Horton Hears a Who (no page

numbers)

So adult did: Evan S. Connell Mrs. Bridge 11

Then, on a: J. D. Salinger Franny and Zooey 134

The ways of women: David Leavitt The Indian Clerk 282

This was a: Charles Dickens Great Expectations 80

“I just can’t: T. J. Parsell Fish 290

“She thinks I’m: Sherwood Anderson Winesburg, Ohio 206

We have heard: Alex Ross The Rest is Noise 541

Later Joe was: Ron Padgett Joe 14

He was one: Vladimir Nabokov Laughter in the Dark 72

He’s a funny: David Gilbert Remote Feed 88

Normality is a: Herbert Marcuse Eros and Civilization 246

But many things: Franz Kafka The Complete Stories 286

Inadequate as he: Sarah Bakewell How to Live 54

His waking hours: Edmund White Nocturnes for the King

of Naples 130

Time would take: Evan S. Connell Mrs. Bridge 23

But few people: Richard Ellmann James Joyce 138

“Oh, I know: John Banville The Untouchable 209

Joe shuffled down: Sarah Schulman The Child 18

“Let me deceive: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life

1137

Going upstairs, the: Patrick White Vivisector 456

“Dad understands that: Kenneth Silverman Begin Again

This rings absolutely: Gore Vidal Inventing a Nation 175

“What should I: Paula Fox The Coldest Winter 68

“That’s just what: Charles Dickens Great Expectations 168

Even as they: John Ashbery April Galleons 2

Her influence over: Edna O’Brien James Joyce 135

Is dead: Christopher Isherwood A Single Man 13

He was destined: James Joyce Portrait of the Artist as a

Young Man 219

Eleanor did not: Bertolt Brecht Galileo 81

“He was born: Amanda Michalopoulo I’d Like 112

How can they: Michael Cunningham By Nightfall 31

She builds an: Stephen Benatar Wish Her Safe at Home ix

Eleanor’s view prevailed: Joseph P. Lash Eleanor and

Franklin 175

It was life: James Joyce Finnegans Wake 478

Silence: MiKiš TheodoraKiš Journal of Resistance 155

Now that’s what: Sam Massey Return of the Greek 45

25.

“Well, this would: F. Scott Fitzgerald The Great Gatsby 88

There is a woman: Susan Sontag I, etcetera: Stories 15

David closed his: Eleanor Porter Just David 193

“Life has been: Colm Tobin The Master 230

“Sounds dreadful: Evan S. Connell Mrs. Bridge 27

He was smoking: Mary McCarthy The Group 159

He was freshly: Colm Tobin The Master 220

And it begins: David Thomson Have You Seen…? 37

Style is an: H. G. Wells The Time Machine 78

I turned on: James Lasdun Horned Man 41

Nothing and everything: Edna O’Brien James Joyce 16

“Chopin, eh?: David Leavitt The Indian Clerk 127

It was Stravinsky: Alan Bennett Writing Home 39

Despite everything that: Ben Marcus Notable American

Women 70

Messages from an: Alan Bennett Writing Home 229

And then there’s: Elizabeth Gilbert Last American Man 217

To cook is: Shunryu Suzuki Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind 53

How much my: Franz Kafka The Complete Stories 285

Every moment it: Montaigne Selected Essays 25

At this moment: Honoré de Balzac Lost Illusions 611

“Darling, is there: Andrew Holleran Dancer from the

Dance 217

To this crucial: Lydie Salvayre The Award 74

“Oh God,” he: Andrew Holleran Dancer from the Dance

104

Every time he: Sherwood Anderson Winesburg, Ohio 144

He is ill-mannered: Edmund Wilson Axel’s Castle 79

Seen from a: Alex Ross The Rest is Noise 527

He tops, for: Justin Taylor Everything Here is the Best

Thing Ever 119

I consider my: Rebecca Godfrey The Torn Skirt 164

It is made: Hugh Kenner The Pound Era 182

Just a few: Addicted: Notes from the Belly of the Beast

(Whitaker) 193

And that’s what: Adam Phillips On Balance 223

That’s just the: Denis Donoghue American Classics 234

How was it: Edmund Wilson Axel’s Castle 139

You’re always hearing: Binne Kirshenbaum Pure Poetry 49

Such are the: James Lasdun Horned Man 61

There are moments: Thomas Dumm Loneliness as a Way

of Life 12

In the real: John Ashbery Flow Chart 197

I remember that: Rudyard Kipling Kim 259

But, in all: James Blake The Joint 155

To be is: Hugh Kenner The Pound Era 164

David, at the: Eleanor Porter Just David 88

“Do you want: J. D. Salinger Franny and Zooey 147

I came here: Sherwood Anderson Winesburg, Ohio 162

Funny is almost: Justin Taylor Everything Here is the Best

Thing Ever 136

David was one: Honoré de Balzac Lost Illusions 567

“Is it naïve: Elizabeth Gilbert Last American Man 254

He Kišsed my: T. J. Parsell Fish 160

“I cannot tell: George Eliot Middlemarch 18

Indeed, I thought: Heinrich Kleist Selected Prose 267

He began to: W. Somerset Maugham The Razor’s Edge 141

But in a: Richard Wollheim Painting as an Art 285

“I was once: Mary Jo Bang/Dante The Inferno 17

This had never: Charles Kaiser The Gay Metropolis 198

Is he just: Michael Cunningham By Nightfall 6

“I was not: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life 685

David was radically: E. F. Benson David Blaize 301

“David, you are: Philip Roth Professor of Desire 125

“I’m beginning to: Brenda McCreight Parenting Your

Adopted Older Child 189

Is that not: James Joyce Portrait of the Artist as a Young

Man 137

David smiles, shyly: John Waters Role Models 225

How well I’m: Justin Spring Secret Historian 169

David had been: John Waters Role Models 221

“Fertilize your inner: Lydie Salvayre The Award 76

“Shall we speak: Bertolt Brecht Galileo 89

Who wrote this: David Gilbert Remote Feed 152

Dinner was not: Bruce Duffy The World As I Found It 450

Far from it: Søren Kierkegaard Works of Love 219

To put it: D. A. Powell and David Trinidad By Myself 1

He suffered tortures: D. H. Lawrence Sons and Lovers 330

From there on: Geoff Dyer Out of Sheer Rage: Wrestling

with D. H. Lawrence 26

I left him: J. D. Salinger Franny and Zooey 141

The end of: Henry James Portrait of a Lady 130

Something must be: Brane Mozetic Banalities 18

He selected a: Andre Tellier Twilight Men 57

“I know how: Stephen Benatar Wish Her Safe at Home 13

And so the: Anthony Burgess A Clockwork Orange 33

I will not: James Joyce Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man 113

But the Milky: H. G. Wells The Time Machine 106

That is the: Fritz Zorn Mars 241

That is how: Hugh Kenner The Pound Era 5

It is too: Frederick Seidel Poems 1959-2009 411

Writing is no: Roland Barthes Mourning Diary 230

Too late: Milan Kundera Testaments Betrayed 191

Of all the: Fritz Zorn Mars 154

The light that: Andre Tellier Twilight Men 50

No man knows: Montaigne Selected Essays 22

26.

All my life: Fritz Zorn Mars 134

It called for: Fritz Zorn Mars 41

The psychologists know: Lynne Sharon Schwartz

Emergence of Memory 46

But I’m very: Virginia Woolf Diaries Vol V 306

I don’t want: David Levithan The Full Spectrum 186

One thing is: Gregory Woods History of Gay Literature 340

Given how our: Gregory Woods History of Gay Literature

386

A friend of: Richard Rodriguez Brown 217

The fairies broke: Sylvia Townsend Warner Kingdoms of

Elfin 199

Life mirrors art: Binnie Kirshenbaum Pure Poetry 52

This tickles Joe: Ken Kesey Sometimes a Great Notion 176

“He must have: Rachel Ingalls Mrs Caliban 20

What other point: Michael Warner The Trouble with

Normal 196

Life in New York: John Ashbery April Galleons 32

“And I want: Kenzburo Oe A Quiet Life 86

My conscience pricked: Susanna Pinney, ed. I’ll Stand by

You: Letters of Sylvia Townsend Warner 7

I wanted to: George Orwell An Age Like This 3

And I can: Guy Hocquenghm Screwball Asses 60

27.

I must have: Franz Kafka The Complete Stories 278

David was sitting: J. M. Barrie The White Bird 43

Had they remained: Geoff Dyer Out of Sheer Rage:

Wrestling with D. H. Lawrence 52

As he had: Gustave Flaubert Sentimental Education 212

“I suffer every: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life 664

It takes ages: Brane Mozetic Banalities 21

To which David: J. M. Barrie The White Bird 102