Deeper We Fall (37 page)

They were wheeling her to the elevator when Stryker burst into the hallway from the stairwell. He zeroed in on Katie and ran to us.

“Zan called and said something happened. Did Zack do this?”

Zan grabbed our coats and my hand, putting his phone back in his pocket.

“Yeah,” I said and he looked like he was going to scream. He punched his fist into his other hand.

“I told her not to go see him. I told her it was a bad idea,” he said as the elevator doors closed and we rushed to follow it down the stairs. “She’s stubborn.”

“I know. She didn’t want to go to the hospital. God only knows what she’s going to do when it comes time to press charges.”

“I called her parents,” Zan said as we dashed out to the parking lot.

“I’ll drive,” Will said, jingling his keys.

“I’ll take my own car,” Stryker said. “Meet you there.”

Zan and I crammed ourselves into Will’s truck and Will drove as fast as he could without making it so we’d have to call another ambulance.

“I’ll park it, you guys go.”

Stryker was right behind us, somehow finding a parking spot before Will had. We went to the nurses’ station and they pointed us down the hall to a room. The door was open, and I could hear Audrey. Will finally caught up with us.

“You go,” Zan said, holding Will and Stryker back. “We’ll just wait out here.” There were a few chairs and they all sat. Of course Will popped up a second later and started pacing.

A police officer was trying to talk to Katie, who was apparently putting up a fight while Audrey tried to get her to talk. There were also people bandaging her up. It was a lot of people crushed into a tiny room.

“I’m fine, just leave me alone,” Katie said, still crying as everyone tried to calm her down.

“Katie?” She looked up from the bed and saw me.

“Lottie, can you just take me back? I don’t want this. We broke up and it’s done and I don’t want this.”

I took her hand.

“Katie, you have to be strong right now. I know it’s hard, and you want it to go away, but it’s not going to. Zack hurt you, and if you don’t do something, he’s going to hurt someone else. It has to stop now.”

Her face crumbled again and she couldn’t talk for a moment. A nurse in scrubs with lollipops on them handed me some tissues and I passed one to Katie.

“We’re going to need to make sure she doesn’t have any other injuries,” the nurse said. “Has anyone notified her parents?”

“Yeah, I think they’re on their way. They live two hours away,” I said.

“Okay, why don’t you go wait outside and I’ll come out with an update in a little while.” Her smile was warm and put me at ease. That must be a job requirement for nurses.

Audrey and I told Katie we’d be back and left her in capable hands.

The guys all jumped up when we came out.

“They’re still working on her,” I said. “She’s not taking it too well, but I think they’ll get the story out of her. We’re supposed to sit and wait. When are her parents getting here?” I directed the last part to just Zan.

“Soon. They’re going to drive as fast as they can, but it might still take a while.”

There was nothing to do but sit or pace outside her room, so Will and Audrey went off to get coffee for everyone. I thought back to the last time I’d done this, waiting to find out if Lexie was okay. I shrugged off the memory. Katie was going to be fine.

“I told her not to see him,” Stryker said, shaking his head. “She told me it was just so they could make a clean break, and that would be it.”

“You couldn’t have known. There’s no way to know what he’s capable of,” I said. “You can’t beat yourself up about it because then you’ll just go crazy. Trust me, I know.”

Stryker kept drumming on his pants. I sat and tried not to cry, and Zan settled for holding my hand and staring off into space.

“This has to end,” Zan said quietly.

“I know,” I said.

“He showed up at my door last week and I told him I was cutting him out of my life. I was so fed up with his bullshit and I just wanted him to go away. I should have told you.” He shook his head.

I gripped his hand hard so he’d listen to me.

“This has nothing to do with you. He would have done this no matter what, you know that. And if he wouldn’t have done it to her, he would have done it to someone else. He’s like a bomb and you never know when it’s going to go off.”

Everyone is so quick to take blame on themselves. Maybe that’s part of being human. Taking blame for things because the alternative, that there isn’t any one person you can blame, is too scary. Like I’d told Zan, people were afraid of losing control. That was what blame was all about.

Will and Audrey came back carrying coffee for everyone and we all played the waiting game. Simon showed up just as Will was about to pace a hole in the floor.

“Hey, I came as soon as I could. How is she?” he said.

“We’re still waiting. I think she’s just banged up, but there’s an officer in there so I hope he’ll get her to press charges,” I said.

“That’s good.” He looked around at everyone. “Wow, it looks like a funeral in here.”

“Simon,” I said.

“What? You’re all going to go crazy if you sit around like this. Okay, new idea. We’re playing a game.”

“What?” Stryker said.

“It’s to pass the time, and we’re all playing so get over it.” I knew exactly what he was doing, and I was about to help him explain the game when my phone rang.

“That’s Trish. I’ll be right back.” I walked down the hall as Simon explained the game.

“Hey, I called as soon as Her Bitchness would let me. How is she?” I leaned against the wall and stared out the window at the parking lot.

I explained everything I knew and that we were still waiting.

“I’ll be there as soon as I can. Who else is there?”

“Everyone. Simon’s trying to keep them occupied right now.”

“I can’t believe this happened.”

“I can.” I heard a voice say something in the background.

“I bet. Oh, shit. I’m getting the evil eye. Please text me with updates.”

“Will do.”

When I came back Simon had somehow wrangled everyone into playing the picnic game.

“I’m bringing apricots and bees and coconuts and donuts and elephants and fudge and gremlins and hotdogs,” Stryker said, before moving to Will.

I jumped in and we played until Will messed up and then we started over. And over. And over.

Zan

By the time the nurse came out to give us an update, we were all strung so tight I thought someone was going to explode.

I wanted to explode. In fact, the only thing keeping me from not exploding was Charlotte’s hand in mine. She kept me tethered to sanity.

All the things I’d done for Zack, all the times that I’d bailed him out ran through my mind. I’d done it because he was my brother, and that was what you did for your brother.

Zack Parker wasn’t my brother anymore, at least not like that. I had a new family.

Charlotte and Stryker and Miss Carole and even Will and Audrey and Trish and Simon and Katie. A group of people brought together who looked out for one another.

Charlotte squeezed my hand periodically to make sure I wasn’t going to fly off the handle.

“I’m okay,” I whispered. I wasn’t, but I was keeping it together.

A commotion down the hall made us all look up. I recognized Glenn and Regina as they frantically rushed to Katie’s room.

The nurse came out a few minutes later.

“How is she?” Charlotte said, getting up without letting go of my hand.

“She’s a little worse for wear, but she doesn’t have any internal injuries. Her parents are with her now, so I think she’s in good hands. We’ll keep her here for a little longer and then send her home.”

“What about him?” Stryker said.

“The police have taken her statement, and she’ll be pressing charges.”

Everyone breathed a small sigh of relief.

“She’s lucky to have such good friends,” she said with a smile, before going back into Katie’s room. Glenn came out a moment later.

“Hi, Mr. Hallman,” Charlotte said. “I’m so sorry about what happened.”

“It’s not your fault, Lottie,” he said, his face tight with worry. She let go of my hand and gave him a hug, which he returned. His face crumbled and he struggled not to lose it.

“I was so worried about her coming here, but I never thought this would happen.”

“You couldn’t have,” Charlotte said. “There’s nothing you could have done. It’s not your fault.”

Being in a hospital in the middle of a crisis dredged up so many memories of the accident, it was almost too much to take.

Charlotte and Glenn talked a little longer, and he told us all to go home and he’d keep us updated.

“I just want to tell her we’re going,” Charlotte said after Glenn was dragged back into the room by Regina.

I waited while Charlotte had a moment with Katie and the rest of us wondered what to do.

“I wish we could do something,” Audrey said, yawning. She was just slightly leaning on Will’s shoulder.

“There’s nothing we can do,” he said, slowly putting his arm around her. “Although, if I were one for vigilante justice, I’d say let’s go out and find him, but that doesn’t seem like a good idea.”

“We don’t need you getting arrested,” Audrey said, leaning closer to him.

“That would only be if I got caught.”

***

We were all quiet on the walk back to the dorm from the parking lot.

“What do you think he’ll get? Prison time?” Will said.

“I hope so,” Charlotte said. “He deserves it.”

Our eyes met in the dark and I knew what she was talking about.

“He never seemed like such a bad guy. A douche, sure, but this?”

“It was only a matter of time,” I said. Charlotte pulled closer to me. “Zack likes to get what he wants, and when he doesn’t, he takes it.”

Charlotte and I went to her room to clean things up. Will offered to help, but Charlotte sent him downstairs with Simon. Audrey also went back to her room after begging for updates.

“Do you want me to go, too?” I said.

She braced herself on her desk. “If you go anywhere, I’m going to fall apart. You’re the only thing keeping me from not going nuts right now.”

“Same here.” I stood behind her.

She fell against me and I held her tight. Her body shook.

“I know I’ve been getting mad at everyone for blaming themselves, but I can’t stop thinking that if I would have confronted her about him that it wouldn’t have happened. I know that’s stupid because I can’t control what other people do, and if I would have done that, she would have turned on me, and it would  have probably happened anyway. But I can’t help it.”

“I know, L. I know.” I rocked her from side to side. We rocked for a while until she let go.

“We should clean up.”

The room was in chaos after so many people had been tramping through it. Silently we got things back to where they were supposed to be.

“I can’t deal with the silence in here,” she said, putting on some music. Def Leppard. It somehow seemed appropriate.

Once we were done, we lay on Charlotte’s bed.

“Have you ever thought of telling him the truth? Zack?” she said.

“A million and one times. But then I couldn’t see the point. He probably wouldn’t believe me anyway. The thing about Zack is that he’s incapable of taking responsibility for his own actions. I always did that for him.”

Charlotte’s phone went off and she had a quick discussion with Glenn before calling everyone else and giving the update that Katie’s parents were taking her home for a little while and Zack was going to be arrested the next day.

Exhausted, she threw her phone on the floor and curled back into me.

“You want to go driving tomorrow? I’m supposed to work, but I’m going to call in.”

“I’ll go anywhere  and do anything with you. You’re my home. My family.”

“I love you,” she said, kissing me once.

We fell asleep, still in our clothes, her head on my heart.

Chapter Thirty-nine

Lottie

Zan and I slept late the next day, and when I picked up my phone, I had another million messages. Zan had a few too.

“Zack called me.” He handed me his phone and played the voicemail Zack had left. It was full of bile and lots of swearing, but there was one thing I got from the message that overwhelmed all of that.

He was scared. Scared shitless.

“I know I shouldn’t, but I get a sick sort of pleasure out of hearing your brother scared out of his mind,” I said.

Zan rested his chin on my stomach. “He left this last night. I should probably call him to see if he’s been arrested yet.”

I played with his hair. “Why don’t you call your parents?”

“They’ll find out soon enough. It doesn’t really matter anymore. I told you last night. You’re my family now.”

I had a family, but now it was complete with Zan in it. I just wished that part of my family, Katie, wasn’t going through hell.

We all decided to get together at Stryker’s and talk. None of us knew what to do, so at least getting together and talking was something.

Will went out and bought pancake mix, so we made pancakes. We all looked horribly hung over even though no one had gotten drunk the night before.

“Have you heard anything?” Stryker asked Zan as he piled up a huge plate with pancakes.

“Not yet. I’m sure my mother will call the second she knows.”

Stryker and Trish argued about the pancakes while Zan, Simon and I chopped up some fruit, and Will and Audrey talked quietly. Guess they needed a crisis to be that final push to get them together. I bumped my shoulder with Zan’s and nodded at Will and Audrey.

“About time,” he whispered to me.

My phone rang, and I dived to get it. It was Katie.

“Hey, how are you feeling?”

Her voice sounded groggy. “Hey. I’m… I’m okay.”

“Are you at home?”

“Yeah. My parents are hovering over me, and I don’t know how much more I can take. I just want to come back, but they won’t let me yet.”